Unhinged: Discussing Mental Health

Doug: Depression Survivor, Ed: Supporter

The Unhinged Podcast is an in-depth look at a 30 year friendship between a man, afflicted with a lifetime of treatment-resistant depression, and his best friend, who has had to helplessly watch him battle this dreadful disease, year after year. M...Show More
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Unhinged Episode #060: More With Murray

48:00 | Mar 6th, 2018

This week we have Doug’s uncle Murray back on the show to discuss how he lives a stress-free life and how that affects every aspect of his being. Even after being diagnosed with small cell lung cancer, among other serious diseases, he continues to li...Show More
Unhinged Episode #059: Stress – The Simple Facts

57:22 | Feb 20th, 2018

On our last show, we discussed how one of Doug’s family members is seriously ill, and that was one of his triggers for his mood dropping. On today’s show, we announce that the family member in question is Doug’s uncle Murray, who was our guest on Epi...Show More
Unhinged Episode #058: Chillax

1:05:47 | Feb 6th, 2018

Doug’s personal life has been challenging lately, and this has, in part, been a cause for a mood drop in the last few days. Our plan for this show was to start by playing some music, maybe work on a new intro, and record the show. Instead, Doug told ...Show More
Unhinged Episode #057: New Show Schedule

22:12 | Jan 30th, 2018

Today’s show is mostly an announcement of our new plan to do a show every other week, rather than weekly. We discuss a few reasons why we decided to test out this new schedule. It should actually be good for both the quality of the show as well as ou...Show More
Unhinged Episode #056: Spectrum With Attitude

1:03:34 | Jan 23rd, 2018

This week we welcome special guest Avery, a friend of the show’s, and to us. Avery and Doug share a connection through both being somewhere on the spectrum. Technically, Avery is toward the Asperger’s side. We discuss when and how each of them were f...Show More
Unhinged Episode #055: Perspective

43:16 | Jan 15th, 2018

On this week’s episode, we discuss how important perspective is to live a positive life. Doug has been realizing how the little positive things in life make a big difference if you stop to appreciate them. Focusing on the positives, no matter how sma...Show More
Unhinged Episode #054: Open Your Presence

29:05 | Jan 9th, 2018

In our first episode of 2018, we start with a short and fun guitar jam, which highlights the mood for the new year. Doug is feeling much better, and after receiving the love and generosity from some of our friends and listeners, he’s entering the new...Show More
Unhinged Addendum to #053: Meeting Your Monster

20:42 | Dec 26th, 2017

Our last episode, Episode #53: Hey Brother, was a powerful one for Doug. His mood was pretty low when we started recording, but by the end of the show, his mood had improved greatly, especially after a conversation he had with his sister Laurie. Afte...Show More
Unhinged Episode #053: Hey Brother

1:08:26 | Dec 19th, 2017

We’re back for our final show of 2017 (we’ll be back in January). This episode is a little bit different since the bulk of it is an actual recording of our typical pre-show planning discussion. Doug had mentioned in the past that we should probably s...Show More
Rerun: Holiday Episode 2016

1:12:10 | Dec 12th, 2017

Hello listeners! The holiday season is upon us, and this is typically a hard time for a lot of people, especially those who suffer from mental illness. Depression can easily set in while being surrounded by celebrations, festive lights, and commercia...Show More
Unhinged Episode #052: Undun

58:31 | Nov 21st, 2017

We start this episode with some interesting documentary suggestions and more discussions about curcumin, the wonder supplement. But more importantly, we welcome another special guest this week. In Episode #37, we talked to Doug’s nephew Mitchell Drew...Show More
Unhinged Episode #051: Rambunctious

47:55 | Nov 14th, 2017

We start this episode with a short improvised jam we call “Rambunctious”. The word popped into Doug’s head while recording, so we decided to add a weird vocal track repeating the word, just for fun. Interestingly, in this episode we welcome back spe...Show More
Unhinged Episode #050: We Are Finding Who We Are

48:35 | Nov 7th, 2017

For our 50th episode, we start off with a clip of us singing the King’s X song “We Are Finding Who We Are”. In a way, it’s very relevant to what our show is all about. We look to the unknown future, with pain we have yet to experience, but know is co...Show More
Unhinged Episode #049: Fear: The Halloween Special

58:13 | Oct 31st, 2017

It’s Halloween, which brings us to our special episode on FEAR. What scares us, and why? We talk about the horror movies that scared us growing up, and why we enjoy them. What is it about a good horror movie that gets our hearts racing? Why do we enj...Show More
Unhinged Episode #048: Sweet Dreams

55:17 | Oct 24th, 2017

In this episode, we discuss dreams and dreaming. What are dreams? Can they give us insights into our subconscious? Doug’s recent nightmare ultimately had a cathartic effect for him, bringing him closer to family. It was immediately followed by a very...Show More
Unhinged Episode #047: Steppin’ Into The Twilight Zone

52:43 | Oct 17th, 2017

It was a long day of recording when we did this episode. But the reason is because we were having too much fun putting together a little song clip for the show’s intro. What song? Hint: see the title of this episode 🙂 After 8 hours of fooling around...Show More
Unhinged Episode #046: I Just Want To Celebrate

1:13:00 | Oct 10th, 2017

This week, we first discuss how Doug’s mental state has improved and what he has been doing personally to make sure he can stay in a good place. This includes proper diet and supplements that help replenish the brain of important nutrients. His donat...Show More
Unhinged Episode #045: The Nearly Perfect Storm

29:12 | Oct 3rd, 2017

This week we discuss Doug’s recent one-word Facebook post, “Goodbye”, and how that cry for help showed him just how much support he really has. The struggle for mental health is best fought with loved ones who can support the sufferer when they need ...Show More
Unhinged Episode #044: Precious Moments of Levity

35:39 | Sep 19th, 2017

This week we take a break from the heavy and serious topics and just have a lighthearted conversation. We recorded this podcast while connected to each other through video conferencing, so to us it felt more like we were both in one room just chattin...Show More
Unhinged Episode #043: Take a Minute

53:34 | Sep 12th, 2017

This episode was recorded on September 10th, 2017, also known as the 15th Annual World Suicide Prevention Day. This year’s theme is “Take a minute, change a life.” We discuss what this means and just how being there to listen to someone who is crying...Show More
Unhinged Episode #042: Welcome Back

49:59 | Aug 15th, 2017

After nearly 5 months, Unhinged is back! We took an extended hiatus due to various reasons, the most important being Doug’s terrible relapse. Over these past few months, Doug has been suffering greatly, but now there seems to be a spark of relief as ...Show More
Unhinged Episode #041: Juicy Juice

23:08 | Mar 7th, 2017

Originally, this episode was going to be focused on music and how specific songs affect our moods and emotions. Unfortunately, the battery in Doug’s DBS is running down and this has affected his mood. Since we want to give this music topic the attent...Show More
Unhinged Episode #040: The Road To Now

43:51 | Feb 21st, 2017

This is our 40th episode, and to celebrate this milestone, we’ve compiled the best clips from our first 40 shows, starting with our very first show in March of 2016, all the way to right now. Hear about Doug’s history with Deep Brain Stimulation and ...Show More
Unhinged Episode #039: What, Me Worry?

46:02 | Feb 14th, 2017

We start this episode with the announcement that Doug’s current remission has now surpassed his 3-month record. Not only has this remission lasted the longest so far, but it is also the highest quality remission he has had yet! Looks like the DBS is ...Show More
Unhinged Episode #038: Clean Socks

39:40 | Jan 31st, 2017

This slightly shorter episode starts with us talking about an old, fairly obscure 80’s comedy movie, Rude Awakening. Find out why that movie is important to us, and how we came to discover it. We also talk about Ed’s mild travel anxiety as multiple t...Show More
Unhinged Episode #037: Food For Thought

1:01:03 | Jan 24th, 2017

We continue the discussion about “Having” vs. “Being”, but this time we welcome special guest Mitchell Drew (rocket scientist, idealist, avid concert-goer) and ask his thoughts on the subject. Are we losing out on experiences in real life when we int...Show More
Unhinged Episode #036: Removing Obstacles

49:12 | Jan 17th, 2017

This episode begins with some discussion over technology and socialization. Do today’s modern habits of burying ourselves in our tech devices isolate us from being social? Is social networking helping us become more or less connected with other human...Show More
Unhinged Episode #035: Tabula Rasa

52:41 | Jan 10th, 2017

In the first Unhinged episode of 2017, we discuss an interesting phenomenon called the Mandela Effect. Think your memory is accurate? Think again. The Mandela Effect is when large groups of people all share the same false memory, typically a memory t...Show More
Unhinged Episode #034: Coping and Hoping

1:04:04 | Dec 20th, 2016

In our final show of 2016, we begin with a quick recap of the past year’s episodes, covering how Doug’s mood has fluctuated throughout. Luckily, we’re ending the year on a high note with Doug feeling some relief and successfully starting on his new p...Show More
Unhinged Episode #033: Don’t be SAD

1:11:47 | Dec 13th, 2016

After a three-week hiatus, we’re back just in time for the holiday season! These past three weeks have been very dark for Doug, but he’s finally emerging from the shadows. With another tweak to his DBS settings, he has seen a shift from severe to mod...Show More
Unhinged Episode #032: Where’s Hope?

43:36 | Nov 15th, 2016

It’s been an extremely tough couple of weeks. We didn’t end up doing a show last week, partially due to scheduling conflicts, but also because Doug has fallen into a very deep depression and has yet to climb out of it. His mood has gotten progressive...Show More
Unhinged Episode #031: Peer Through The Darkness

40:54 | Nov 1st, 2016

The importance of a solid support network is typically underrated, but is tantamount to the well-being of someone with depression, anxiety, or any other mental health issue. Family and friends that see through the stigma and understand that it’s a di...Show More
Unhinged Episode #030: Autism Spectrum Disorder with Matt Moloney

1:20:59 | Oct 25th, 2016

In today’s episode, we welcome special guest Matt Moloney, an old co-worker and friend of Doug’s from years past. Matt talks to us about Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD) and Asperger’s Syndrome. Matt’s son Nathan was diagnosed with Asperger’s Syndrome,...Show More
Unhinged Episode #029: Still Fighting

51:31 | Oct 18th, 2016

We welcome Doug back in this episode, but he’s still fighting through severe depression and anxiety. Apparently, this time, he actually felt the trigger of his downturn. It occurred after a comment from someone he looks up to totally took the wind ou...Show More
Unhinged Episode #028: Eyes are Green

07:51 | Oct 11th, 2016

If you listened to our last show, you know Doug has been feeling much better since the DBS adjustment was made maybe 1 month and a half ago or so. He was feeling confident and was looking forward to starting down the path of becoming a peer support c...Show More
Unhinged Episode #027: Electric Avenue

57:17 | Oct 4th, 2016

In this episode, we catch up with Doug’s progress with his DBS. Still going strong, even after a stressful few days. The neurological corrections (based on MEG brain imaging) are still in place and seem to still be working their magic a full month af...Show More
Unhinged Episode #026: Baby Steps

51:25 | Sep 27th, 2016

Though Doug’s mood continues to improve from the new DBS setting, the end of the month financial struggle rears its ugly head again. In desperation, he started a crowdfunding campaign, only to suspend it early since we both felt uncomfortable with a ...Show More
Unhinged Episode #025: Carpe Diem

59:24 | Sep 20th, 2016

In this episode we continue discussing Doug’s progress and how the MEG brain imaging has helped dial in his current DBS settings, which seem to be holding so far. Doug goes into a bit of detail about the differences between the types of brain imaging...Show More
Unhinged Episode #024: Happy Days

1:01:55 | Sep 13th, 2016

Doug’s new setting on his DBS seems to still be working its miracles. Since the MEG scan pointed to three settings that showed promising neural activity, Doug has been on the first setting, and so far so good! No more shooting blind… with brain imagi...Show More
Unhinged Episode #023: Helplessly Hoping

52:31 | Sep 6th, 2016

We’re back! In this episode, Doug talks about the results of his MEG scan and how he’s feeling after weeks of unbearable anxiety. His scans show that there are three DBS settings that were showing activity, so at least now, when adjusting the DBS, it...Show More
Unhinged Episode #022: Trepidations

17:45 | Aug 26th, 2016

Doug is back! But only briefly to explain what he’s been going through and what it means for the future of our podcast. Don’t worry, we will continue in one form or another, but we must now consider Doug’s mental health and whether talking so persona...Show More
Unhinged Episode #021: Fear

03:42 | Aug 16th, 2016

Last episode, we discussed how Doug was unable to join us due to his off-the-charts anxiety. This past week, his anxiety has continued like a roller coaster. Unfortunately, his disease is again keeping him from participating. We chatted a few days ag...Show More
Unhinged Episode #020: Return to Pooh Corner

23:19 | Aug 9th, 2016

If you’ve been following the podcast, you’ll know that Doug has been on a roller coaster ride with his treatment resistant depression, being in remission for quite a while, then falling back down, then coming back out of it again. In our last episode...Show More
Unhinged Episode #019: A New Hope

44:02 | Aug 2nd, 2016

After a long three weeks of relapse, Doug is finally starting to emerge from the darkness. In this episode, Doug recalls some of what he was feeling during that time… the anger, the frustration, the hopelessness. We also respond to a couple of emails...Show More
Unhinged Episode #018: Relapse Part 2 – The Call

1:21:30 | Jul 26th, 2016

NOTE: This episode contains very strong language and disturbing subject matter. This is a real life documentation of a person in a desperate state, wanting his pain to end. Listener discretion is advised. Since the 4th of July, Doug’s mood has been s...Show More
Unhinged Episode #017: Relapse Part 1

42:55 | Jul 19th, 2016

NOTE: This podcast was recorded on July 10th and talks about Doug beginning to relapse right after recording our previous episode about his remission. After this episode, Doug has unfortunately continued this downward trend, and on next week’s show, ...Show More
Unhinged Episode #016: Mission Remission

47:05 | Jul 12th, 2016

NOTE: This podcast was recorded on July 3rd and deals with Doug’s recent 2-month remission. However, as of July 4th, Doug’s mood has taken a downward turn, so the declaration of a full remission was a bit premature. We will have more information abou...Show More
Unhinged Episode #015: Brothers in Arms

1:15:04 | Jul 5th, 2016

In this episode, we welcome special guest Jamie Rickel, Doug’s older brother and de-facto family liaison. Jamie has come to understand Doug’s plight and that his disease is not something he can control. The discussion gives us a look at Doug’s early ...Show More
Unhinged Episode #014: Texting Truths and Brain Facts

38:35 | Jun 28th, 2016

Another month’s end, another situational downward turn. In our 14th episode, we discuss how living under the poverty line puts any mental illness recovery in danger. Doug’s situation is no exception as he struggles to survive for eight days with a ze...Show More
Unhinged Episode #013: Letters From the Loony Bin

43:40 | Jun 21st, 2016

In our 13th episode, we cover Doug’s 6-month stint in a mental hospital. We learn what it felt like for him to be in a real life “One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest”. Doug reads an old journal entry, which sounds like a dark and emotional suicide note. ...Show More
Unhinged Episode #012: Psychopharmacology and Pharmacogenetics

51:25 | Jun 14th, 2016

This week we talk about drugs and how genetics might play a part in how they affect different people. Doug , as part of an IMPACT study in pharmacogenetics, discovers he metabolizes slowly, so medicinal treatments need to be adjusted accordingly. We ...Show More
Unhinged Episode #011: Inside the Criminal Mind

57:29 | Jun 7th, 2016

We all love to fear monsters. In Hollywood, that thrill brings in millions. But what about when those monsters are real people who feel no remorse for their criminal behaviors, including murder? In this episode of Unhinged, we dig into what makes ser...Show More
Unhinged Episode #010: Money, Magic, & Murray

1:04:13 | May 31st, 2016

Another rocky start this week as Doug’s money troubles due to being on disability nearly derailed the show. So we decided to discuss the issue as our opening topic. How does someone with a mental illness, who cannot work, survive on only $15k per yea...Show More
Unhinged Episode #009: Music and the Brain

43:18 | May 24th, 2016

In our 9th episode, We talk about how music is what brought us together many years ago and how it became an important part of our friendship. We also disclose what the “blue room” from our previous intro is and how that’s related. There was another r...Show More
Unhinged Episode #008: TRD and Special Guest Nurit Adler

1:06:43 | May 17th, 2016

In our 8th episode, Doug discusses the details of Treatment Resistant Depression. What is it? Is it common? What treatment options are available? Having lived with TRD his whole life, Doug has researched and tried pretty much every treatment option o...Show More
Unhinged Episode #007: Prince, Robin Williams, and Suicidal Contagion

50:21 | May 10th, 2016

In this episode, we discuss the difference in how the media covered the death of Prince vs. the death of Robin Williams. Responsible journalism calls for portraying celebrity suicide as not something romantic and sensationalized, but rather as a dise...Show More
Unhinged Episode #006: Celebrities, Ketamine, and Family

38:18 | May 3rd, 2016

We start by listing some celebrities known to have Major Depressive Disorder. Though their fame does bring much needed focus to mental illness, we strive for the day when it’s accepted as a disease that is out of the control of its victims. We also d...Show More
Unhinged Episode #005: Self-Medication & Medical Marijuana

54:12 | Apr 27th, 2016

This episode opens with an emotional reveal of our struggle to get the episode recorded due to Doug’s most recent downward turn. Waking up depressed and angry for the last couple of days has forced Doug to postpone the show twice before we decided to...Show More
Unhinged Episode #004: Area 25, DBS Detractors & Mindfulness

47:12 | Apr 20th, 2016

In this episode of Unhinged, we talk about the area of the brain called Area 25 and how it relates to mental health.We also find out why there are some psychologists who think that Deep Brain Stimulation (DBS) is dangerous and prefer non-surgical, an...Show More
Unhinged Episode #003: Deep Brain Stimulation, Cody Glode

41:51 | Apr 13th, 2016

Episode #3 gets into some details of Doug’s most radical depression treatment: brain surgery. Deep Brain Stimulation (DBS) is a neurosurgical procedure involving the implantation of a device that sends electrical impulses, through implanted electrode...Show More
Unhinged Episode #002: Delving Deeper, Trump, and More

37:00 | Apr 6th, 2016

In our second episode of Unhinged, we touch on why some people with severe depression make good comedians. In fact, the need for approval or validation for some can push them to the arts. In our news segment, we delve into the question asked by Psych...Show More
Unhinged Episode #001: Introduction

32:54 | Mar 30th, 2016

Welcome to Unhinged! This is our very first podcast, where we discuss who we are and what we will be talking about in this series. We introduce Doug, who has been suffering from treatment resistant depression for most of his life, and me (Ed), an old...Show More