Find The Magic Podcast
1) Why we don’t want sex
Most relationships aren’t starved for sex—they’re starved for attunement. In this kickoff, we unpack why “I don’t want sex” often means “I don’t feel safely, slowly, specifically known.” The episode o...Show More
2) When you feel like you're dying
Felicia traces the quiet deaths we live through—leaving a home, shedding an identity, choosing motherhood and self at once. From fallen leaves to umbilical cords, she explores how change asks us to re...Show More
3) Mother for hire
Felicia explores the everyday altar of motherhood—where care becomes love when it’s shared, not hoarded. Through a Dark Goddess lens (Dancing in the Flames), she reframes “self-sacrifice” as a broken ...Show More
4) Why I Left
Felicia reflects on the question, “Why did you get divorced?” and traces an answer through embodied pleasure, the deadness she refused, and the ways women’s sexuality is outsourced and commodified. An...Show More
5) Devastating Unknowing
Halloween, divorce, and the everyday test of wills. In this tender solo, Felicia invites us into the messy middle—the school parade you weren’t ready for, the “you’re so strong” comments that land sid...Show More
6) How I Dropped Purity Culture
Felicia traces a lineage of women who never rested grandmother, mother, herself—and the moment she burned down a “perfect” life to make space for truth. This is a tender, feral meditation on rest, ero...Show More
7) Not an Up-There God
Today’s devotional wrestles with where—or if—God lives, and why the body was my first church. I talk about hiding from “knowing” with busy perfection, getting brought to my knees, and the strange alch...Show More
8) A Mother's Crashout
This episode traces how want eclipses love, why our nervous systems cling to the status quo, and what it looks like to re-center care—personally, politically, and on the block where we actually live.I...Show More
9) Whitewashed Peace
If you prefer to read ….I watched a show last night…A tiny superhero girl crawls through a man’s brain. I can see the relief.But isn’t it connected? You’re like, whoa, that is MORBID. Maybe it is. May...Show More
10) Radical Sobriety
A raw meditation on divorce, identity, and learning to meet life without anesthesia. Felicia traces the mapless terrain of choosing herself—moving from control to consent, from dissociation to the hon...Show More