Mental Illness Happy Hour

Paul Gilmartin

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#351 Fears, Loves, Filth & Mortality w Greg Behrendt

1:30:51 | Oct 5th, 2017

The comedian, co-author of He's Just Not That Into You and longtime friend of Paul drops by to lighten his day up. They laugh at their fears, loves and thoughts about mortality and getting older.   Check out Greg's PODCAN podcast network Here is the ...Show More
431 - Rich But Sad & Video Games - Keith Kingbay

1:32:29 | Apr 19th

The comedian and podcaster (New Player Has Joined) opens up about his financially privileged but emotionally barren childhood, verbal abuse from youth hockey coaches, and discovering himself thru video games. WAYS TO HELP THE PODCAST Subscribe! Spr...Show More
Sofiya Alexandra - Mania, Communism, Surviving Cancer & #MeToo

2:27:55 | Nov 2nd, 2018

The writer (Danger & Eggs) standup (Comedy Central: This is Not Happening) & podcaster (Reality Bytes) shares about her childhood under communism in the Ukraine, her battles with bipolar (loving the mania), surviving cancer and how to help or talk to...Show More
Lazy, Dumb, Hyper, Scattered - Jessica McCabe & ADHD labels

1:42:29 | Oct 26th, 2018

"Bored", "lazy", "scattered" "hyper"; Are these fair or accurate labels? Is there anything we can do to help our brains or motivation? Jessica shares about her past struggles with these labels and how we can find what our brain likes so we don't labe...Show More
Unspeakable Trauma to Meth Psychosis - Todd G

2:10:46 | May 25th, 2018

Paul's friend shares about the co-dependent relationship with his longtime lover that ended in tragedy & Todd's PTSD, porn & meth binges tailspinning into a showdown on his roof vs a SWAT team, before finally having a moment of clarity and getting hi...Show More
#323 Family Secrets & Hiding Depression - Patricia McKee

2:19:29 | Mar 24th, 2017

How does a family deal with its secrets? The PhD opens up about the inter-generational rage brewing beneath the surface of her extended family and the difficulty in trying to cope when favorites are played, a mother feels jealous of her daughter, tra...Show More
#260 Dr. Jonice Webb on Emotional Neglect

2:07:15 | Jan 15th, 2016

The licensed psychologist and author (Running on Empty) talks about the effects of childhood emotional neglect and how parents can be more attuned to their child's needs. This is a particularly good episode for people who struggle but feel guilty bec...Show More
#204 Lauren Ashley Bishop (voted #2 ep of 2014)

2:46:33 | Dec 19th, 2014

The 37 year-old comedian shares about the three traumas that led her to finally seek somatic therapy for her disassociating subtype of PTSD, how she's healing and the tools she uses to cope today.
435 Anxiety & Humor - Jordan Reid

1:28:56 | May 17th

The hilarious blogger/author of Ramshackle Glam &The Big Activity Book For Anxious People shares about her battles with anxiety, & being fired from It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia. She & Paul also get into some fun Fears and Loves.  WAYS TO HELP TH...Show More
434 - Depression, Drinking & Fear - Ry Doon

1:57:45 | May 10th

The comedian shares about his battles with depression, fear of failure, huge financial and professional setbacks (he had a huge following on Vine before it was retired), having a mother with BiPolar I, and alcohol. WAYS TO HELP THE PODCAST Subscrib...Show More
433 - Janet Varney Returns

1:52:28 | May 3rd

Paul's former Dinner and a Movie cohost and very first guest on the podcast returns to share about fears, loves, panic attacks, people pleasing, hurt feelings and her battles with personalization displacement syndrome. WAYS TO HELP THE PODCAST Sub...Show More
432 - Heartache & Obsession - Elle Huerta

1:32:19 | Apr 26th

Elle talks about obsessions & letting go especially after breakups, shame, isolation, rejection and not being enough, plus the sickness of working to extreme exhaustion and trying to find validation outside of her accomplishments. WAYS TO HELP THE ...Show More
430 - Our Own Worst Enemies - Lori Gottlieb LMFT

1:42:05 | Apr 12th

The licensed therapist shares common issues people deal with in therapy and ways that we are our own worst enemy. Paul shares about adopting a dog, plus great listener descriptions of their food issues anxiety and depression. WAYS TO HELP THE PODCA...Show More
429 Trust Issues, Ideation & Food - Leo Flowers

2:07:48 | Apr 5th

The comic, life coach, & ex-athlete shares about his suicidal ideation, struggles with food, abandonment by his dad who fathered him via an affair, learning trust, self-care, conflict resolution and even trying the suicide hotline. WAYS TO HELP THE ...Show More
428 - Trading Sex For Love - Marigny Goodyear

1:42:24 | Mar 29th

The 41 year-old mother reads the open letter she wrote to the men who took advantage of her as a young teen, discussing gray area issues like consent, alcohol, objectification and trading sex for love, attention or to avoid abandonment. WAYS TO H...Show More
427 Best Of: Adoption & Religious Abuse - Julie J

2:26:05 | Mar 22nd

Funny & vulnerable, Julie was born to a teenage mom, was given up for adoption and raised by a stoic military dad and Fundamentalist mom whose obsession with demons comes close to resembling the mother from “Carrie”. From 2013 WAYS TO HELP THE PODC...Show More
426 Grief Support Mistakes - Megan DeVine LPC

2:19:50 | Mar 15th

The licensed therapist shares about the well-meaning but misguided "cult of positivity" after tragedies, emotional dissonance, grief support, having difficult conversations and how she dealt with the sudden death of her partner. WAYS TO HELP THE POD...Show More
#425 Remembering Jenn Golick

2:06:46 | Mar 8th

Weeks after recording this episode last year, therapist Dr. Jennifer Golick was killed by a combat veteran with PTSD whom she was helping. She talks about her work with vets, covert incest and codependence. WAYS TO HELP THE PODCAST Subscribe! Spre...Show More
424 Remembering Brody Stevens

2:02:11 | Mar 1st

One of the most unique voices in comedy ended his life last week. Paul shares some thoughts on it, reads a listener email and replays episode 100, an interview with Brody from Feb 2013, in its entirety. WAYS TO HELP THE PODCAST Subscribe! Spread t...Show More
#423 Catholic Black Sheep - Joe Bill

1:31:15 | Feb 22nd

Paul's longtime friend and improv teacher talk about his violent ex-Notre Dame football player dad, his mentally unstable and sexually abusive mother and how he found his voice in creativity but still struggles with shame, codependency and self-love....Show More
#422 Religious & Sexual Orientation OCD - Kimberley Quinlan LMFT

2:01:25 | Feb 15th

The LMFT returns to talk about two types of OCD; Scrupulosity - a fear of sinning or having sinned, and Sexual Orientation OCD - an obsession about one's present or future orientation. She and Paul share their own anxieties. Kimberley also hosts he...Show More
#421 Amy G - Male Attention & Feeling Safe

2:14:35 | Feb 8th

Paul's support group friend opens up about being addicted to male attention while also fearing them, feeling unsafe, love addiction, growing up without her bio dad (without explanation) and the power of vulnerability in healing. WAYS TO HELP THE P...Show More
#420 Psychiatrist/Writer Dr Paul Puri

2:02:31 | Feb 1st

The psychiatrist and tv writer (Chicago Med) shares about his childhood, why some of his peers overprescribe medications, the importance of talk therapy, some info on hypnosis and Paul opens up about his health fears especially around meds and long-t...Show More
Feeling Like An Outsider - Glenn Lutz

1:41:56 | Jan 25th

The author (Go F*%#, I Mean Find Yourself) opens up about being mixed race and battling depression and feeling like an outsider as far back as childhood. He and Paul share things they're grateful for and read inspirational quotes from his book. Mo...Show More
BONUS: Introducing First Day Back

05:37 | Jan 23rd

Ep Description: First Day Back is a podcast about people facing and trying to overcome life’s most challenging moments. This season is a new story about a comedian who died on stage and was revived by a member of the audience. Follow along this seaso...Show More
#419b Bonus ep - Listener Struggles/Secrets

34:54 | Jan 21st

Some "Shame and Secrets" surveys and some "Awfulsome" and "Happy Moments" surveys as well.
#418 Fears & Loves w/Nora McInerney Live

1:50:09 | Jan 18th

The author (It's OK to Laugh and No Happy Endings) and host of the podcast Terrible Thanks For Asking returns in front of live audience in Minneapolis. She, Paul and the audience share their fears and loves and answer some questions. More About Ou...Show More
Bonus Ep - Maternal Incest - Daniel M

41:52 | Jan 15th

After hearing mens' stories about experiencing incest (overtly or covertly) by their mothers, Daniel reached out to Paul with his story and has come to share it (with his girlfriend for support as well.) This episode is sponsored by StitchFix ...Show More
Our Inner Critic - Cartoonist Lucy Bellwood

1:51:45 | Jan 11th

The cartoonist (100 Demon Dialogues) delves into her struggles with the mean/critical voice in her head and how she is confronting the lies it tells her about herself. She also shares about her dad, the author of The Highlander, and their complex rel...Show More
Facing Her Fears - Courtenay Hameister

2:02:29 | Jan 4th

The writer/performer opens up about her anxiety, panic attacks, OCD, shame and body issues. She also reads excerpts from Okay Fine Whatever: The Year I Went From Being Afraid Of Everything to Being Afraid Of Most Things, her hilarious new book about ...Show More
2018 Year Ender - Awfulsome Traditions

53:20 | Dec 28th, 2018

No guests, just some of Paul's thoughts on traditions and holidays; how we hide our feelings and some great, very honest (and one very dark) listener surveys including the best holiday Awfulsome moment yet.
Struggles With Moderation, Identify & Survivor's Guilt - Akshay Nanavati

2:09:33 | Dec 21st, 2018

Born in India, raised in Texas, 33 year-old Iraq War veteran, ultra-runner and global philanthropist talks about his lifelong struggles with moderation, getting his identify from his accomplishments or dangerous/crazy/extreme behavior, feeling unwort...Show More
Dating Anxiety & Reproductive Issues - Becky Feldman

2:15:59 | Dec 14th, 2018

Coming from an anxious family, coupled with not fitting in, being bullied by her ballet teacher (and having red hair), then as a young teen, developing vaginismus, Becky spent her 20s resigned to never dating or having a partner. Surgery, talk therap...Show More
Back in My Parents' F-ing Basement - Live in MN w/Kjell Bjorgen

2:03:31 | Dec 7th, 2018

Recorded live in Minneapolis at Sisyphus Brewing, Paul and Kjell reunite and share stories of bombing onstage, panic attacks, depression, meds, feeling lazy, future tripping, anger at partners, living in parents' basements, self-doubt, dead-end jobs ...Show More
Cartoons & Murder - Tonya McKenzie

2:12:23 | Nov 30th, 2018

One of her first memories is seeing her mother's boyfriend shot dead in front of her at four years-old. The mother she adored was fiercely protective of her except when it interfered with her dangerous lifestyle. A great chat about mental health - es...Show More
LeeAnn Kreischer - Rural Southern Generational Trauma

1:59:28 | Nov 23rd, 2018

The former screenwriter, mother and podcaster shares about her relationship with her "party-animal" husband Bert Kreischer and her tumultuous childhood split between a mentally-ill narcissistic mother, a lovesick broken father, and a grandfather with...Show More
FOMO, Shame & People Pleasing - Mary Holland

1:42:39 | Nov 16th, 2018

The improviser/actor (UCB's Wild Horses) opens up about her struggles with feeling like a fraud, people pleasing, shame, FOMO, feeling undeserving or that her authentic self is just too much for people. Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusiv...Show More
Chris Mancini - A Buffet of Anxiety

1:17:43 | Nov 9th, 2018

The filmmaker (Earbuds) podcaster (Comedy Film Nerds and Conversations From the Abyss) writer (Pacified: A Handbook For the New Freaked-Out Dad) and comedian sits down to talk about anxiety, depression, parental stress/anxiety and feeling career disa...Show More
introducing: Imagined Life

05:04 | Nov 4th, 2018

What is it like to be famous before you’re famous? What is it like to walk in the shoes of another person? Each episode of IMAGINED LIFE takes you on an immersive journey into the life of a world-famous person. It’ll be someone you may think you know...Show More
It's OK To Be Weird & Anxious - May Wilkerson

1:48:49 | Oct 19th, 2018

The standup & cohost of the "Crazy in Bed" podcast opens up about being an only child & a "weird kid" who couldn't appreciate her uniqueness and desire to belong until college. She shares about her battles with social anxiety, bulimia, drinking, inso...Show More
Adam Cayton-Holland: OCD, Social Conscience and Loss

1:43:13 | Oct 12th, 2018

The standup, actor and author shares about familial loss, his lifelong OCD rituals, and growing up in a home where the harsh and often brutal realities of the world were discussed with the kids, helping them empathize but also took an emotional toll....Show More
Mariel Hemingway - Generational Dysfunction & Art

1:45:34 | Oct 5th, 2018

The actress, author (Out Came the Sun) and granddaughter of writer Ernest Hemingway shares about the him, her family, acting, generational trauma, mental illness, addiction/alcoholism and dysfunction and how she has learned to deal with her anxiety, ...Show More
Dealing with Hopelessness - AFSP Psychiatrist Dr Christine Moutier

1:51:46 | Sep 28th, 2018

The psychiatrist and chief medical officer for the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention shares insights into dealing with hopelessness both personally and with loved ones. The Suicide Hotline number is 1-800-273-TALK Older episodes can be...Show More
Paul in Ireland VI - Terror, Hate & Forgiveness - Sponsored by BetterHelp

1:31:50 | Sep 21st, 2018

Belfast native James Murray shares his story of surviving a terrorist attack, spiraling into drinking and anger then getting sober and finding peace & forgiveness and how he maintains it. He also shares about the benefits of ayahuasca. Older episo...Show More
Paul in Ireland V - Ex IRA Prisoner Jake MacSiacais - Sponsored by BetterHelp

2:12:09 | Sep 14th, 2018

The former IRA member shares his people's history, his years of imprisonment & torture by Protestants and the British govt, the responsibility he feels for civilian lives that were taken by his organization, watching fellow prisoner Bobby Sands die b...Show More
Paul in Ireland IV - Emma - Sponsored by BetterHelp

1:40:26 | Sep 7th, 2018

The English architect (and yoga teacher) talks about navigating relationships being bisexual, finding solutions for her lifelong bouts with anxiety, recurrent depressive disorder, abusive partners and bottoming out with a suicide attempt. Older ep...Show More
Paul in Ireland III - Sponsored by BetterHelp - Caitlin

1:28:01 | Aug 31st, 2018

The 29 year-old Dubliner opens up about her struggles with psychosis, cutting/self-harm, alcohol, anger, learning disability (seeing letters mirrored) & spatial/motor control; also her suicide attempt and it finally expressing her pain despite feelin...Show More
Paul in Ireland II - Sponsored by BetterHelp - Michael Corr/Belfast

1:32:41 | Aug 24th, 2018

Born in Belfast, Northern Ireland to a Catholic father and Protestant mother. He had the rare perspective of seeing all sides of the conflict both inside and outside his home, where he was raised Catholic in a violently Protestant neighborhood.  He s...Show More
Paul in Ireland I - Sponsored by BetterHelp

1:41:55 | Aug 17th, 2018

21 year-old M emigrated to Dublin from China at 8. With a history of abuse and neglect, she learned to stuff her sadness or unleash it thru anger. She battles Bipolar I, BPD, Complex PTSD & co-dependence but is developing tools & support.  She talks ...Show More
ECT aka "Shock Therapy" - Beth May

1:46:15 | Aug 10th, 2018

At 27 Beth has had 68 ECT treatments aka "Shock Therapy" and while she attests to it's effectiveness in helping her with her bipolar episodes it has also taken a toll on her memory; including not recognizing her boyfriend of several years. Older e...Show More
Fetish Shame, Meds & Martial Arts - Dylan Brody

1:52:34 | Aug 3rd, 2018

The writer/storyteller discusses the lifelong struggle to make peace with his amputation fetish, his ups and downs with taking meds, inheriting his dad's pomposity, suicidal ideation and the benefits of martial arts in dealing with depression and anx...Show More
How to Deal With Addicts - Dr Cali Estes

1:38:46 | Jul 27th, 2018

Cali's specialty is speaking the truth to high-profile or wealthy people trying to get sober, especially when they're being enabled by family, hangers-on or the people they make money for. Topics are : codependency, low self-esteem & boundaries Ol...Show More
Michael Duffy - Vietnam Vet - Art & War

1:26:30 | Jul 20th, 2018

He was just a kid who wanted to get into art school but when he was rejected, he instead got sent to Vietnam. Later he would use painting to process the traumas he experienced. Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitcher Premium fo...Show More
Meredith Erin - Trolls, SJWs & Angry People

1:02:47 | Jul 13th, 2018

Paul and Meredith share their stories and thoughts about encountering internet trolls, Social Justice Warriors gone awry and self-righteous bullies. Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitcher Premium for $4.99/month.  Get one mon...Show More
Brian Huskey - Codependency vs Love

1:03:04 | Jul 6th, 2018

The improvisor/actor (Comedy Bang Bang, UCB, Adult Swim - Mr. Neighbor's House) shares about dealing with his co-dependency, urge to fix other people, play the resentful victim and how support groups help him. Older episodes can be found ad-free e...Show More
Sexism PTSD & The Body - Elizabeth Menzel

1:59:03 | Jun 29th, 2018

Elizabeth Menzel's life's work is understanding and healing trauma trapped in the body - including her own. Originally a trained physical therapist she became intrigued by the link between clients with fibromyalgia and a history of trauma.  She found...Show More
Female Domestic Violence Against Men - Daniel A

1:28:24 | Jun 22nd, 2018

Daniel looks back at his relationship with his soon-to-be-ex-wife; turning from the woman of his dreams to a dangerously violent and unpredictable stranger. He talks about the myths around female on male DV and his experiences before leaving her  ...Show More
Social Anxiety - Dr Ellen Hendriksen

2:02:47 | Jun 15th, 2018

The author of How To Be Yourself: Quiet Your Inner Critic and Rise Above Social Anxiety, and Harvard Medical School Psychologist shares not only the science of Social Anxiety and ways to deal with it but some of her own battles with it.   Older ep...Show More
Jessa Reed - Trailer Park Survivor & PTSD

1:56:54 | Jun 7th, 2018

Few guests have revealed as much of themselves as Jessa, a comic and podcaster (Mormon and the Meth-Head)  We touch on being molested, fear of intimacy, addiction, sobriety, anger, psych wards, rejection, sexual fantasies most people would never shar...Show More
Clutter, Hoarding & Buying "Stuff" - Tracy McCubbin

1:48:30 | Jun 1st, 2018

Decluttering expert Tracy McCubbin shares about her experiences being raised by a hoarder and how she helps clients part with their stuff. She and Paul get into the topics of materialism, cheap-goods consumerism, compulsive shopping and using "stuff"...Show More
Best Of: Tiffany Haddish

2:11:28 | May 18th, 2018

One of our best episodes - recorded in 2015 before she was famous (Girl's Trip, Saturday Night Live) - Tiffany opens up about her horrific family life, being shuttled around the foster care system and finally finding her voice doing comedy.   The ...Show More
Singer-Songwriter Chris Smither

1:13:57 | May 11th, 2018

The blues-based singer-songwriter who has written for Bonnie Raitt and other artists started out in the epicenter of the NY/Boston folk scene among contemporaries like Bob Dylan and Eric Von Schmidt reminisces about his career, the art of songwriting...Show More
Melissa Broder aka @SoSadToday Returns

2:02:29 | May 4th, 2018

The hilarious author and uber-popular Tweeter @SoSadToday delves into subjects covered in her latest book, The Pisces (and reads from it). She and Paul talk about romantic obsession, sexual compulsion that leads to shame and regret; the overall searc...Show More
Andy Richter

2:03:59 | Apr 27th, 2018

The comedic actor, improviser and longtime Conan O'Brien sidekick opens up about his battles with depression, worry, anxiety and sadness and how he has learned to manage them with talk therapy. He also shares about the illusion he held that acquiring...Show More
Nora McInerny - Live in Minneapolis

2:29:03 | Apr 20th, 2018

The host of the Terrible Thanks For Asking podcast and author of It's Okay To Laugh (Crying is Cool Too) sits down with Paul before a live audience to talk about how she processed (and still is) the grief of losing family members and dealing with her...Show More
Cy Amundson Live in Minneapolis

1:14:51 | Apr 13th, 2018

The actor/comedian (Comedy Central Presents: Cy Amundson) opens up in front of a live audience about his OCD, anxiety and how the loss of his teenage sister affected him and his family. For more on Cy visit More
Judging Our Feelings - TED Talk Speaker Dr. Susan David

1:47:20 | Apr 6th, 2018

The Harvard Medical School research psychologist's recent TED Talk "The Gift and Power of Emotional Courage" went viral a month or so ago and here she sits down with Paul to talk about the human habit of judging ourselves for our feelings, how it aff...Show More
Polyamory - Daisy & Cory

2:30:53 | Mar 30th, 2018

Daisy (with Cory for support) shares about her emotionally absent parents, Taiwanese culture, her anxiety, need to control, fear of making mistakes, struggling to find a sense of self and the imprint left on her by pleasing her emotionally withdrawn/...Show More
Workaholism & Anxiety - Jordan Harbinger

2:14:45 | Mar 23rd, 2018

The hilarious, self-depreciating podcaster (Jordan Harbinger Show) and ex-lawyer opens up about a recent professional crisis that left him with extraordinary anxiety, insomnia and panic attacks. He talks about often feeling like a fraud, (also known...Show More
Introducing Safe For Work - A podcast I dig!

12:38 | Mar 19th, 2018

When they asked if I'd be interested in turning you on to this podcast I listened to it and said yes, because it's so well done and needed.  Jobs can get emotional and complicated and this new podcast Safe For Work takes calls about the workplace, in...Show More
My Brain Hates Me - Jessie Dean Altman

1:58:23 | Mar 16th, 2018

The writer (Lady Parts, The Onion) and dog walker shares about the lifelong battle she has had with her brain and emotions including: Intrusive thoughts, OCD, treatment-resistant depression, procrastination, self-judgment, and anger. She shares how R...Show More
The Devil & James Bond - Michael Cannan

1:48:17 | Mar 9th, 2018

Paul's support group friend, recovering heroin addict and author shares about his upbringing on the Isle of Mann (UK) and the shame and anxiety he felt about secrets in his family and within himself. He opens up about his psychosis that convinced him...Show More
CC Sheffield aka Daisy - Fame, Money & Abuse

1:32:52 | Mar 2nd, 2018

Originally recorded while speaking under the pseudonym "Daisy" to protect her from her abusive ex-fiancee, CC, a successful model, DJ and actress describes her relationship with a wealthy, powerful and manipulative drug addict/alcoholic who had turne...Show More
Heartbreak - Dr. Guy Winch

1:55:30 | Feb 23rd, 2018

Renowned author & TedTalk speaker Dr. Guy Winch talks about different kinds of heartbreak, especially the ones some people  minimize (loss of pets or non-married breakups). He gets into the science of how our brains react to loss, how we experience t...Show More
Horror & Beauty - Witnesses to a Shooting

1:33:04 | Feb 16th, 2018

Paul is joined by two support group friends, Jonathan & Mukunda, to talk about their experience 3 weeks earlier when a shooting victim stumbled into their meeting and began bleeding out at their feet. Jonathan and Mukunda, both sober and ex-criminals...Show More
Female Sex Addiction - Erica Garza

1:50:52 | Feb 9th, 2018

The Salon contributor and author of Getting Off shares about her sex addiction, which began at age 12 after discovering masturbation as a way of soothing her anxiety and not having to deal with her feelings but over time escalated into riskier and mo...Show More
The Dark Grip of OCD - Dr Jenny Yip

1:26:15 | Feb 2nd, 2018

She battled OCD as a child but when she gave birth to twins it gripped her again despite being a trained psychologist who specializes in...yes...OCD. A great episode about the power fear, dark thoughts and shame in fueling OCD but also the power of g...Show More
Food Owns Me, Anger & Dad Issues - Jay Larson

2:25:20 | Jan 26th, 2018

The writer (HBO's Crashing) and stand-up (Me Being Me) opens up about his dad abandoning his family when he was 2 years-old and how that has effected his view of the world, himself and now his children. He talks about his struggles with food, anger, ...Show More
Couple Troubles - Jen Elmquist LMFT

1:47:04 | Jan 19th, 2018

Couple's therapist Jen Elmquist sits down with Paul and answers questions about the most common mistakes and hurdles couples face and offers advice on how to value your partner and relationship without devaluing yourself. There are no surveys in this...Show More
Network Anchor Panic Attack - Dan Harris

2:09:42 | Jan 12th, 2018

Imagine having a panic attack live on-air while anchoring ABC news. That happened to Dan Harris in 2004. The Nightline anchor, Good Morning America Weekend Co-anchor, war correspondent and author (10% Happier) opens up about his history of anxiety, d...Show More
My Fair Junkie - Amy Dresner

2:05:31 | Jan 5th, 2018

The author (My Fair Junkie) details her jaw-dropping and often hilarious descent from a nice (but spoiled) Jewish girl from Beverly Hills to shooting coke into her neck, bottoming out on meth and sex and being assigned to a chain gang after threateni...Show More
Asperger's, Nerd Culture & Anime - Luke Palmer

2:09:17 | Dec 29th, 2017

The young writer/director (2 Kawaii 4 Comfort) shares about the intersection of people on the autism spectrum (especially Asperger's) and nerd culture especially anime. He opens up about his diagnosis as a child, different therapies his parents tried...Show More
Born Into A Notorious Criminal Family - Nicole Y.

2:27:44 | Dec 22nd, 2017

Born mixed-race to a white prostitute mother and a black, pimp father, Nicole grew up belonging to one of the most notorious families in the Boston underworld. Having seen and experienced unimaginable things, she found an outlet in music and finally ...Show More
Military PTSD & Sexism - Marc & Sonja Raciti

2:42:27 | Dec 15th, 2017

Marc and Sonja Raciti both served in the military; he as a medic, she as a psychologist. They talk about PTSD myths and the PTSD he struggles with from fearing for his life to seeing unspeakable carnage to having survivor's guilt. She weighs in as hi...Show More
High School Tornado/Author Seamus Kirst

2:04:08 | Dec 8th, 2017

In a live show recorded in Oakland, the 26 year-old writer (Shitfaced) discusses the loving but strained atmosphere growing up and his teenage years attempting suicide, drinking his way to rehabs and an eating disorder. He shares about making peace w...Show More
The Absent Father Wound - Daria Polatin

1:59:55 | Dec 1st, 2017

The award-winning playwright, t.v. writer (Jack Ryan)and author (Devil in Ohio) opens up about feeling abandoned by her father and the effect it has had on how she views herself, her place in it and the conscious decision she has made to become the h...Show More
Alt Depression Treatments - Shane Mauss

2:14:37 | Nov 24th, 2017

The standup/podcaster (Here We Are podcast) shares about taking unconventional approaches to his battles with depression and hopelessness. He opens up about his kind but very religious and uncommunicative parents and the hometown where things weren't...Show More
Kelly's Shame and Secrets

2:08:47 | Nov 17th, 2017

Growing up Kelly McCarron's home life wasn't chaotic or abusive but she still struggles mentally and emotionally. After filling out the show's Shame and Secrets survey she reads it aloud, touching on the issues of self-esteem, the aftermath of being ...Show More
Success-Obsessed Parents & The Scapegoat Child

2:20:42 | Nov 10th, 2017

30 year-old Mary M. left America for Europe to escape not only an American culture that was wearing on her but a family where she was tired of being the scapegoat to her golden-child brother.  An all-too-common scenario where her parents can only see...Show More
#355 Afraid To Leave The House - Sam Harriman

1:43:50 | Nov 2nd, 2017

Panic attacks, agoraphobia, anxiety and depression had brought Sam to a very dark place a few years ago and he decided he needed help. Bit by bit he began to see how his childhood and negative self-beliefs had to be re-examined. A new clarity on the ...Show More
#354 Surviving Suicide - Kelechi Ubozoh

2:21:37 | Oct 27th, 2017

The 32 year-old poet, mental health advocate and daughter of a Nigerian immigrant father and Brooklyn mother opens up to Paul about her emotional and mental turnaround after years of feeling suicidal and several times attempting it. She details the w...Show More
#353 Andy Kindler - OCD, ADD, Twitter Fights & More

1:35:40 | Oct 20th, 2017

Paul's longtime friend, standup (Letterman) and actor (Everybody Loves Raymond) shares about his struggles with OCD, ADD and feeling the need to control people's opinions about his behavior even after lashing out at someone. He talks about his childh...Show More
#352 Caitlin Doughty: Death, OCD & Being a Mortician

2:12:26 | Oct 13th, 2017

The mortician, TED Talk speaker and author of Smoke Gets In Your Eyes, talks about her childhood OCD and fascination with death as a result of witnessing a tragedy, how she'd like to see the American funeral industry change and how death is viewed/em...Show More
#350 Intrusive Thoughts OCD aka "Pure OCD" - Kimberley Quinlan LMFT

2:06:07 | Sep 29th, 2017

Specializing in treating clients whose self-judgement of their thoughts results in obsession and compulsions, Kimberley sits down with Paul and talks about the different forms OCD can take and how to treat it or support someone you love without enabl...Show More
#349 Emotionally Coercive Sex - Perfectionism - Dissociating

3:06:58 | Sep 22nd, 2017

Paul's support group friend Meredith opens up about being raised by parents who lacked a sense of privacy or sexual boundaries; being sexualized by her father, mother (who has a long history of "accidentally" showing her vagina) and step-mother in co...Show More
#348 Manhattan Party Girl - Fielding Edlow

2:08:07 | Sep 15th, 2017

Raised in financial privilege but emotional poverty, the actor/writer/standup reflects on her "don't give a fuck" eating disorder, drug and alcohol years trying to stuff the real feelings of abandonment, not being good enough, anxiety, anger and feel...Show More
#347 Paul Rust - Anxiety, OCD & Embarrassment

1:59:30 | Sep 8th, 2017

The actor/writer/comedian known for the Netflix show Love, the movie Inglourious Basterds and IFC's Comedy Bang! Bang! opens up about his battles with anxiety, OCD, taking on other people's emotions, people pleasing, wanting attention, shame, fear of...Show More
#346 Plane Crash Survivor: Carol E Miller

2:08:54 | Sep 1st, 2017

The author (Every Moment of a Fall: Recovery Thru EMDR Therapy) opens up in front of a live audience in Oakland about the years she abused herself through bad relationships, booze and sex before therapy and EMDR helped her confront her true feelings ...Show More
#345 Food, Porn, Shame, Vulnerability & Losing a Sibling - Matt Shepherd

1:30:53 | Aug 24th, 2017

Paul's support group friend shares about recovery and battles with binge-eating, shame, compulsive exercise, not knowing what he looks like, porn addiction, love addiction, fear of leaving relationships, feeling like he "is enough", growing up in a f...Show More
#344 If Only You Knew This Secret

1:22:29 | Aug 18th, 2017

YouTube personality Sarah Sterling is 26 and was obsessed with Harry Potter (and Disney) since day one. At a convention she met a singer who captivated her. He was 24 and she was 16. Looking back, she sees it as statutory rape and is processing that....Show More
#343 British Therapist Louise M

1:54:03 | Aug 11th, 2017

Louise (a pseudonym) shares about the moment in her otherwise mostly happy childhood that things changed.  She shares about the abuse at a posh Harry-Potteresque school when she was six by a headmaster who walked the dark halls with a torch; her mom'...Show More
#342 When Your Trauma Informs Your Turn Ons

1:37:19 | Aug 4th, 2017

Why do some people enjoy physical pain or become aroused by it? For Kal, the discovery came with a lot of complications; he was a young boy and it was at the hands of a powerful and sadistic pedophile Rabbi (Heshy Brier) who is now a fugitive living ...Show More
#341 80's Childhood Shitshow! - Dana Eagle

2:13:56 | Jul 28th, 2017

Imagine getting gay hate mail from your own family.  Or finding a letter where your parents talk about you in a way that confirms your worst fears.  How does Bipolar 2 compare to having something like cancer?  Comedian and author (How To Be Depressed...Show More
#340 Is it Rape if You're Married? - Holly Christie

1:48:35 | Jul 21st, 2017

Her mother has Narcissistic Personality Disorder and she married a man who became sexually abusive over time.   One day she realized she had had enough of toxic people in her life and filed for divorce and stopped working with her mom. People judged ...Show More
#339 I Wrote A Hit Now What?!! - Seth Swirsky

2:09:06 | Jul 14th, 2017

He's authored Grammy-nominated hits for the biggest artists, put out his own albums, written best-selling books on baseball, and directed a documentary on the Beatles.  And for as long as he can remember he has struggled with anxiety, panic attacks a...Show More
#338 Dear Food: I Want To See Other People

2:35:31 | Jul 7th, 2017

Fat-shamed as a child by her mother and classmates, writer-performer Chelsea Frank, now 24, opens up about the complex role food plays in her life.  She talks about her struggles with weight, self-hatred, bingeing and restricting, going to "fat camps...Show More
#337 - Raised in Repression & BPD - Anne from Berlin

2:13:55 | Jun 30th, 2017

Creative and sensitive, born and raised in 1980's communist East Germany by a dysfunctional family, Anne's abuse was not dramatic, more like death by 1000 cuts.  Bearing the brunt of being a first child and resented for her intelligence, she develope...Show More
#336 Jealousy & Internet Affairs - Mila

2:29:12 | Jun 23rd, 2017

What goes on in someone when they're jealous, possessive, obsessive or need to create drama?  Mila was born into a family where her parents "couldn't live with/couldn't live without each other"  and she found herself as an adult becoming like them, S...Show More
#335 From Hostile to Peaceful - JT

1:49:32 | Jun 16th, 2017

19 year-old JT shares about the crippling anxiety, panic attacks and fear of abandonment he tried to alleviate for years through being hostile and controlling (of course it backfired) before finally deciding to get help. He shares with Paul the painf...Show More
#334 Abused By Her Therapist - Christina L

2:13:52 | Jun 9th, 2017

Christina L (a pseudonym) shares about learning to stand up for herself after an abusive rehab therapist preyed on her as she was getting sober and the confusion of not knowing what he was doing was wrong.  She shares about her dysfunctional family, ...Show More
#333 - When Sex Abuse Victims Become Adults & Avoiding Help/Work Burnout - Katie Vernoy LMFT

2:09:31 | Jun 1st, 2017

LMFT therapist Katie Vernoy and Paul respond to listener questions around the topics of 1) How childhood sexual abuse affects the survivors when they become adults and 2) How can people avoid job or helping burnout. They talk about the specifics of s...Show More
#332 Obsessive & Secret World of Classical Musicians - Ben Turner

2:26:41 | May 26th, 2017

The Australian professional trombonist shares about the mental, emotional and logistical rigors of making a living as a classical musician and some insights into what drove him (and his peers) to such obsessive lengths. We get a peek behind the curta...Show More
#331 The Worst Day of My Life - Rhonda Britten

2:46:05 | May 19th, 2017

Rhonda says "It took me 20 years to get thru that day" as she opens up about the event that changed her life forever when she was 14 years old.   She talks about how it changed her view of God, herself and the world around her, sending her on a path ...Show More
#330 Co-Dep & Boundaries - Dr. Natalie Feinblatt

2:02:12 | Apr 30th, 2017

Dr. Feinblatt shares her experience as a therapist in working with co-dependent clients; how is co-dependency defined, what are some characteristics and how can it be treated or managed? She also shares about the importance of codependents learning a...Show More
#329 My Lovely Wife in the Psych Ward - Mark & Giulia Lukach

1:45:51 | Apr 30th, 2017

Rarely do we talk about the spouse of someone battling a serious mental illness. Mark and Giulia had never heard of Bipolar I with psychosis until she broke from reality well into their marriage. Taped in front of an audience in Oakland, they bare th...Show More
#328 - Crack, Fights & Trying to Find Love - Charlie King

1:47:02 | Apr 28th, 2017

Paul's support group friend has led an astoundingly painful life especially in regard to his mother (schizophrenia, depression), father (workaholic, hoarder), and sister (drug addict). He describes his descent into drugs (crack), emotionally damaged ...Show More
#327 Leaving Domestic Violence - Jenna Brister

1:57:02 | Apr 21st, 2017

The comedian/storyteller (The Moth) shares about her whirlwind 86 day romance that led to a Vegas wedding to a man who soon turned into a man she didn't recognize, leaving her in fear for her life.  Jenna talks about her experience escaping from dome...Show More
#326 I Was Born Afraid - Jenny Jaffe

2:17:13 | Apr 14th, 2017

The comedic writer/performer and mental health advocate who started shares about the tremendous support she received from her family when depression anxiety and OCD had her close to suicide by age 10, and even more despondent from...Show More
#325 I Am The Worst Person Ever: Mike Levine

2:22:16 | Apr 6th, 2017

For most of his life Mike has been wracked with shame and self-hatred, convinced he was the worst person ever and fantasizing about suicide when he was hospitalized at 15. He and Paul talk about where his self-hate may come from as well as his ADHD, ...Show More
#324 Literally Pulling Her Hair Out From PPD - Jennifer Tracy

2:26:08 | Mar 31st, 2017

It wasn't until she began to literally pull chunks of her hair out she knew she might be battling something out of her control; postpartum depression. She talks about her battles with cyclical depression starting at an early age, being an only child ...Show More
#322 Being Trans in a Red State: Olivia Haidar

2:35:00 | Mar 16th, 2017

The 29 year-old trans woman dispels myths about what it means to be trans, including those she used to believe. She shares about hormone therapy, gender reassignment surgery, the prejudice and stigma of "passing", feeling dysphoric growing up, coming...Show More
#321 Herpes from Date-Rape: Laura J

2:59:52 | Mar 9th, 2017

Laura J. shares about contracting herpes by being date-raped and how she has navigated managing it logistically, sexually and emotionally with partners, including her husband. She was raised in an emotionally cold home by a psychiatrist father and im...Show More
#320 Fantasy & Love Addiction - Maia Akiva

2:32:28 | Mar 3rd, 2017

Paul's fellow support group friend shares about the huge role fantasy has played in her struggle to accept life; especially her love addiction. She talks about being unable to watch lesbian films in moderation (she is a lesbian) and how the CPTSD fro...Show More
#319 - I Worry I'm Unlovable - Pauly David

2:46:44 | Feb 22nd, 2017

The co-host of YouTube's Pauly & Monks show shares about feeling unlovable, not being a good enough partner, trying to always "fix" other people, having to be an adult in his family at nine, learning to equate money with love and being rejected by re...Show More
#318 I Can't Stop Worrying! - Giulia Rozzi

2:25:54 | Feb 17th, 2017

The Moth Grand Slam winner, standup and podcaster (Hopefully We Don't Break Up) shares about being raised by Italian immigrant parents who worried a lot and her "high school brain" that still worries about being left out or gossiped about. Follow Giu...Show More
#317 - Misophonia: Rage at Certain Sounds

2:39:00 | Feb 10th, 2017

35 year-old barista (and listener) Charlynn Schmiedt shares about having misophonia which is a "fight or flight" physical response to certain everyday sounds, such as gum chewing, throat clearing etc. and the complications and misunderstanding that a...Show More
#316: Kevin Allison on Owning Your Weirdness & Flaws

2:32:15 | Feb 3rd, 2017

The podcaster (RISK!) and sketch actor (The State) talks about learning to "own his weirdness".  From being a gay kid in a conservative town to being the black sheep in The State he has battled the paralysis and fear of not being perfect or even good...Show More
#315 Jenny R - Raised in Wealth, Sadness & Anxiety

2:45:39 | Jan 27th, 2017

The anxious only child of a drunk/rager mom and a passive dad shares about her family's combination of material wealth and emotional ignorance/poverty. She talks about her fear of "just being" instead of always "doing", including triathlons & rock cl...Show More
#314 - Working With Sexually Violent Predators: Renee G-M

2:21:38 | Jan 20th, 2017

The 40 year-old public administrator talks about "losing her humanity" being assigned to work on a criminal defense unit on behalf of sexually violent predators and the anxiety, panic and breakdowns that followed.   She also talks about her chaotic a...Show More
#313 Neal Brennan

2:32:35 | Jan 13th, 2017

The writer and director of Inside Amy Schumer, co-creator of Chapelle's Show and standup comic (3 Mics coming soon on Netflix) talks about being one of ten kids raised by a violent alcoholic father and his struggles today with trusting his feelings a...Show More
#312 Why Am I A Mess? My Parents Loved Me - Amanda Bloom

2:00:43 | Jan 6th, 2017

The 30 year-old freelance journalist and Pilates teacher doesn't have anything dramatic to point to in her life, yet she has struggled to find her voice in life with bad relationships, eating disorders, depression, body dysmorphia, and intense fears ...Show More
#311 Punk Rock, EMDR & Trauma w/Dr Stephen Dansiger

2:09:10 | Dec 30th, 2016

At 16 he was playing drums at CBGB and Max's Kansas City as the punk scene exploded. After destroying his career (Pianosaurus, King Missile) he got sober. The PsyD & MFT explains his extensive work with treating trauma victims (especially those with ...Show More
#310 Glamorously Dying: Nikki DuBose

3:03:04 | Dec 23rd, 2016

The 31 year-old ex-model (Vogue, Vanity Fair) discusses surviving incest by her mother (who was also an alcoholic with BiPolar and DID aka Multiple Personality Disorder) and a lifetime of battling eating disorders (binging, bulimia, anorexia), psycho...Show More
#309 Mini Ep - Producers of HBO's Every Brilliant Thing

40:14 | Dec 22nd, 2016

Fenton Bailey and Randy Barbato have produced and/or directed some of Paul's favorite documentaries, including Mapplethorpe: Look At The Pictures, 101 Rent Boys and Monica in Black & White. They sit down with Paul to talk about their newest film, Eve...Show More
#308 A Letter To My 16 Year-Old Suicidal Self - Katie Hirshberg

1:51:45 | Dec 16th, 2016

The 19 year-old college sophomore opens with a letter she wrote to her 16 year-old self who was so tired of the years of depression, anxiety self-hate, bullying, co-dependence, perfectionism, Crohn's Disease and feeling like a burden that she was on ...Show More
#307 Basketball Player Royce White live at ITTFest

2:30:25 | Dec 9th, 2016

The 25 year-old professional basketball player opens up to a live audience about mental health issues not only in his life (OCD, panic attacks and anxiety) but societally, especially in the NBA where he played, and in the relationships between POC an...Show More
#306 Sexual Fluidity, Energy Healing, & Hypnosis - April Adams

2:29:10 | Dec 2nd, 2016

Author/life-coach April Adams clarifies what an "energy healer" actually does despite it sounding like new-age b.s.  She talks about techniques she has used to deal with her childhood trauma and heal others.  She opens up about her experiences with s...Show More
#305 Daddy Issues - Luisa Omielan

2:07:33 | Nov 25th, 2016

The 34 year-old British writer/comedian/performer shares about the pain of her parents' nasty divorce when she was a kid, especially her father using her as a pawn and poisoning her mind about her mother. She also shares about her depression and only...Show More
#304 My Suicide Attempt Wakeup Call - Paul Goebel

2:35:40 | Nov 18th, 2016

The actor/comedian (@Midnight) opens up about his recent suicide attempt, psych ward stay  and how it is motivating him to seek help and try to be a better husband, father and friend.  He shares about trying to break the cycle of bad parenting and un...Show More
#303 Feeling Invisible & BPD - Celia Finkelstein

3:18:33 | Nov 11th, 2016

The actor/improvisor (Horrible Bosses, American Horror Story) shares about learning to manager her Borderline Personality Disorder, and fears of abandonment or not being enough. She also shares about her weight struggles , depression, suicidal ideati...Show More
#302 Behind The Good Girl Mask

2:24:04 | Nov 4th, 2016

Only hugged once in her life by her mother, 25 year-old Yohana is the daughter of conservative East African war refugees from Ethiopia & Eritrea.  All her life she has buried her rage by wearing the "good girl" mask to try to placate her narcissistic...Show More
#301 Sex and Politics - Jamie Varon

2:37:43 | Oct 28th, 2016

The 31 year-old writer discusses feminism, sexual violence and misogyny in the context of partisan politics, and her personal life. She shares about the complexities of marrying a Muslim, growing up being told "you're too sensitive", avoiding her emo...Show More
#300 Jeff Rosenthal

2:27:23 | Oct 21st, 2016

Jeff is Paul's friend of 28 years and the son of former guest and Holocaust survivor Kristine Keese. He shares about her recent passing, their deep but complicated relationship, how he made peace with her being "a terrible mom but a great friend" and...Show More
#299 College Freshman Meltdown: Jen Curran's story

2:41:28 | Oct 14th, 2016

The writer/improviser shares about the mental/emotional breakdown her freshman year of college at NYU that left her living in her car and squatting in empty buildings in New York City.  She looks back on her childhood and the familial love that was s...Show More
#298 Lora B

2:45:26 | Oct 7th, 2016

The 33 year-old listener was the woman who comforted Murray Valeriano during our live episode last week.  From a blended family with every kind of abuse imaginable, including her church elder step-grandfather who molested her, her descent into meth a...Show More
#297 Murray Valeriano Live at LAPodfest

2:29:44 | Sep 30th, 2016

The comedian/writer/podcaster had never talked much about losing his virginity at 15 to a 32 year-old tutor.  Tonight that changed and so did his view of the event and aftermath.  He also opens up about being a preacher's kid (who wasn't even allowed...Show More
#296 Glynn Washington

2:41:56 | Sep 23rd, 2016

The producer/host of WNYC's Snap Judgment shares about being raised in a fundamentalist Christian cult, strategies he's used to survive racism, what he learned by visiting Japan as a college student, his struggles with bipolar and his family's histor...Show More
#295 Mara Wilson

2:32:17 | Sep 16th, 2016

You probably know her as the little girl from Matilda or Mrs. Doubtfire but you probably don't know that's around the time she lost her mom, developed OCD, anxiety, depression and panic attacks and that today she is an advocate for mental health.  Sh...Show More
#294 Dr Laura Dabney

2:12:33 | Sep 9th, 2016

The psychiatrist and therapist talks about sexual trauma in the military, powerful men who fear intimacy, meds, treating personality disorders, doing therapy via Skype, the therapy process and why insurance companies suck. Check out Dr Dabney's site ...Show More
#293 Judy Gold

1:50:56 | Sep 2nd, 2016

The comedian and actress talks her anxiety and depression, being raised in an incredibly anxious household, being bullied throughout childhood for her height (she was six feet tall in 8th grade), and raising two boys in a same sex marriage. This epis...Show More
#292 NHL Legend Theo Fleury

3:01:57 | Aug 26th, 2016

"My coach raped me over 200 times". The truth that Theo almost died trying to keep to himself. Only when he hit bottom with drugs, sex and gambling could he summon the courage to face what had happened when he was a rising 14 year-old phenom. He talk...Show More
#291 Sarah Haufrect - My Mom Had BPD

2:41:57 | Aug 19th, 2016

Sarah shares about her mother's battles with Borderline Personality Disorder, her relationship with such a "beautifully disastrously complicated" woman, Sarah's own battles with bulimia, anxiety, and co-dependency and the role exercise has played in ...Show More
#290 Maddy F - Learning to Love Yourself

2:07:40 | Aug 12th, 2016

You hear the phrase "love yourself" a lot.  But how do we get there? Maddy's story is a great example.  She was molested by a relative (and church leader) but didn't feel safe enough to speak up about it for years.  Then she got help and everything c...Show More
#289 Stephen Brophy

2:44:01 | Aug 4th, 2016

The reality TV producer (Somebody's Gotta Do It) opens up about his depression, social anxiety, history of unrequited love obsessions - especially as a kid, getting sober from prescription opiates and smoking speed thru a broken light bulb! This epis...Show More
#288 Social Worker In Training

2:30:48 | Jul 29th, 2016

28 year-old Cynthia Pena ACSW opens up about her life, experiencing skin tone prejudice within the Hispanic community, being the "good child" who gets forgotten, anxiety, triggers, working in an overloaded county system helping children with severe o...Show More
#287 Andrea C

2:36:05 | Jul 22nd, 2016

Paul's support group friend and writer talks about weighing 95 lbs at 5 years-old, being in foster homes and psych wards, surviving incest, learning self-love and dealing with addictions to food and abusive men. This episode is sponsored by Blue Apro...Show More
#286 Stacy Reynolds

2:32:35 | Jul 15th, 2016

The 43 year old teacher and recovering alcoholic talks about being sexualized as a child by her father, having to cut contact with her controlling mother, and trying to heal while dealing with anxiety, panic attacks and PTSD. Get info on Paul's upcom...Show More
#285 Luke Burbank

2:21:15 | Jul 7th, 2016

The podcaster (Too Beautiful To Live), radio host (Live Wire Radio) and tv host (CBS Morning News) talks about his outbursts of anger that get physical, always feeling uncomfortable in his skin and being hyper vigilant to avoid criticism. This episod...Show More
#284 Dr Lauren Costine

3:01:40 | Jul 1st, 2016

The author (Lesbian Love Addiction: Understanding the Urge to Merge and How to Heal When Things Go Wrong) and therapist talks about love addiction especially in the lesbian community, what coming out what like for her, myths about lesbians and what m...Show More
#283 Julie L: Covert Incest Survivor

3:03:32 | Jun 24th, 2016

The French Canadian biologist sits down with Paul and talks about experiencing covert incest by her mother who she believes also had Borderline Personality Disorder, and her complex relationship with her safer but extremely codependent father.  Julie...Show More
#282 Michael Alexander

2:18:57 | Jun 17th, 2016

Paul's old comedy pal Mike shares about psych wards, not being deemed "black enough", anxiety, depression, experiencing some classic 70's Chicago racism and trying to be a better parent than he had.
#281 Sarah & Zach Goodson Pt 2

2:44:58 | Jun 10th, 2016

Zachary shares his story while his wife Sarah sits in.  He talks about losing his mother (actress Diana Hyland) to cancer when he was 3, being raised by an abusive father, learning to numb himself with sex and after bottoming out, finding help.  They...Show More
#280 Sarah & Zachary Pt 1

2:12:00 | Jun 3rd, 2016

Part I of Sarah and Zachary sharing their stories and how they navigate healing while being married.  Sarah shares her story which includes sexual abuse, codependency, perfectionism, anxiety & a stay in a psych ward. This episode is sponsored by Squa...Show More
#279 Narcoleptic Codependent Anna W

1:59:16 | May 27th, 2016

The 33 year-old research biologist shares about her narcolepsy, PTSD, cataplexy, hypnogogic hallucinations, codependency and life with a partner with bipolar.
#278 At-Risk Youth w/Elie El Habr

2:16:01 | May 20th, 2016

MFT Intern Elie El Habr works with at-risk youth in South Central Los Angeles and shares about his successes and failures in trying to reach kids who either want help or are court mandated, as he tries to keep them from going into juvenile hall or fo...Show More
#277 Religious Abuse - Hilary A

2:18:12 | May 13th, 2016

The 32 year-old shares about breaking free from her mother (and their religion Christian Science) after years of her using scripture as a weapon to justify her neglectful, unempathetic and narcissistic parenting.  She also shares about her history of...Show More
#276 Tracy E.

2:14:29 | May 6th, 2016

Paul's support group friend shares about being raised in a Catholic Italian-American family where attention was hard to get, how her mother's death helped her to grow and her love addiction to men and sugar. To read the article about mental health in...Show More
#275 Tee-Tee

2:13:24 | Apr 29th, 2016

The 29 year-old Vietnamese-Australian shares about being raised by his refugee, mentally-disabled (OCD & PTSD) single mother, experiencing racism, living in inner city poverty (Melbourne) and trying to be "Vietnamese enough" for the Vietnamese commun...Show More
#274 Melanie R (DID aka Multiple Personality Disorder)

2:41:50 | Apr 22nd, 2016

22 year-old Melanie R. shares about living with DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder which used to be called Multiple Personality Disorder), being bullied, having a perpetrator who is female, integrating her "alters" and Sensory Integration Disorder. ...Show More
#273 Melissa Broder aka @SoSadToday

2:11:32 | Apr 15th, 2016

Melissa reads excerpts from her book So Sad Today, probes her turn ons, food issues, stint with polyamory, panic attacks, sexting and depression. This episode is sponsored by the meditation app Calm.  Visit   Foll...Show More
#272 Ex-CHP Officer Kevin Briggs

1:59:26 | Apr 8th, 2016

For many years the ex-highway patrolman's beat was the Golden Gate Bridge. He shares about the encounters he had with people who wanted to jump and how he learned to get some of them to open up and change their minds. He also shares about his PTSD, s...Show More
#271 Sandra (Sex Nerd) Daugherty

2:30:39 | Apr 1st, 2016

The podcaster (Sex Nerd Sandra) shares some of her struggles (low self-esteem, depression, perfectionism) and shares about sex topics like: swinging, orgies, role play, polyamory and giving good blow jobs. This episode is sponsored by SquareSpace.  ...Show More
#270 Patti H

2:16:03 | Mar 25th, 2016

The 32 year-old postal employee shares about growing up with an alcoholic mom and stoner dad, her struggles with perfectionism, anxiety, co-dependency and fear of the unknown, and how altruism has helped her find peace and gratitude. This episode is...Show More
#269 Guy Branum

2:36:59 | Mar 18th, 2016

The 40 year-old writer/comedian (Chelsea Lately) and podcaster (Pop Rocket) talks about growing up gay in a small town, losing his father a few weeks ago and trying to deal with a mother who can't accept him for who he is. Follow Guy on Twitter @Guy...Show More
#268 Laura Kightlinger

2:03:11 | Mar 11th, 2016

The writer/performer (The Minor Accomplishments of Jackie Woodman, Lucky Louie, Will & Grace) opens up about being the product of a secret affair in a small town and being raised by a single mom with no boundaries.   Visit o...Show More
#267 Wynter Mitchell

2:30:17 | Mar 4th, 2016

The 36 year-old African American tech exec (Reddit) shares about being one of the first victims of online predators in 1995 when she was 14.  She shares about her PTSD, anxiety, depression, anger, weight and difficulty trusting men romantically as we...Show More
#266 Sex Crimes Detective Don Howell

1:52:01 | Feb 26th, 2016

The 25 year veteran shares about sex crime myths, psychopathy, the predator personality and how society can better protect itself, especially how parents can help their children.  This episode is sponsored by
#265 Monica Hernandez

2:37:13 | Feb 19th, 2016

The 23 year-old shares about hitting an emotional bottom in college after a childhood/adolescence that included cutting, disordered eating, depression and sexual trauma.  She shares how therapy and running have helped her make peace with her past and...Show More
#264 Brian Bogosian

2:44:17 | Feb 12th, 2016

The 38 year-old jeweler and support group friend of Paul's opens up about being raised by an addict father in a hyper-sexual environment and his own battles with crack, heroin, alcohol and co-dependency.
#263 Therapists Have Issues Too

2:50:12 | Feb 5th, 2016

Therapist Intern Erin Fox Bishop opens up about her struggles (adolescent and postpartum depression, co-dependence, suicidal ideation), and the therapist who inspired her to become one. Follow Erin on Twitter @ErinNewHabits or visit the website www....Show More
#262 Jessie Close

2:02:15 | Jan 29th, 2016

The 62 year-old opens up about living with Bipolar I (with psychotic episodes and rapid cycling), battling alcoholism, being in abusive relationships, being married 5 times, having a son with Schizo-Affective Disorder and getting support from her sis...Show More
#261 Bipolar Mania w/Andy Behrman

1:57:16 | Jan 22nd, 2016

The author (Electroboy: A Memoir of Mania) and divorced father shares about his tumultuous life in the grips of manic episodes, including art fraud, sex work and prison as well as receiving ECT (electroconvulsive therapy or shock treatment) Follow A...Show More
#259 Merritt Stewart LCSW on Sexual Trauma

2:32:04 | Jan 8th, 2016

The LCSW shares her experience in advocating for and counseling survivors of sexual trauma, especially navigating the legal system and helping survivors heal.  She is based in NYC.
#258 Jerry Stahl

1:46:10 | Jan 1st, 2016

The Pushcart Prize-winning writer (Permanent Midnight, I Fatty) shares about the loss of his father to suicide, his mother's belittling of his manhood, his recovery from heroin addiction and always feeling like an ashamed outsider. This episode is s...Show More
#257 Dani Fernandez - Hashimoto's Disease

2:12:59 | Dec 25th, 2015

The 27 year-old comedian/writer shares about her battle with Hashimoto's disease; an auto-immune disorder (with depression as one of its side effects) as well as her suicide attempt.
#256 Lynn Fox - Mom with BPD

2:01:36 | Dec 18th, 2015

The mother of two talks about living with Borderline Personality Disorder, her incredibly abusive father and her life in Silicon Valley doing PR for Apple, Twitter, Google, Star Wars and others.  Lynn hosts the podcast TechCares.
#255 Tim F - Doctors Have Issues Too

2:13:43 | Dec 11th, 2015

The 33 year-old MD opens up about his anxiety, depression, perfectionism, codependency, and his and his father's alcohol struggles. He also shares about the joy and fulfillment in doing volunteer medical work in developing countries.
#254 Andrea Abbate

2:46:44 | Dec 4th, 2015

The 59 year-old comic/writer shares about being a Scientologist,her eating disorder, drug addiction surviving incest (by her father) and her beautiful but suicidal mother's loose grasp on reality.
#253 Lisa Lawrie

1:53:23 | Nov 27th, 2015

The 39 year-old mother of two opens up about her unhealed PTSD from the domestic violence and stalking she experienced at the hands of a psychopathic boyfriend 22 years ago.
#252 Paul Gets Interviewed

2:33:15 | Nov 20th, 2015

Paul's friend, former Dinner and a Movie co-host (and former podcast guest) Lisa Arch asks Paul about his life, his struggles, the podcast and questions posed by listeners, who have been requesting an episode where all of Paul's bullshit can reside i...Show More
#251 Rama I

2:59:33 | Nov 13th, 2015

The 28 year-old Syrian opens up about always being the minority wherever she lives (She was born in Syria, grew up in Brazil and now lives in the US), recovering from sexual abuse, battling depression and anxiety and how getting help has saved her li...Show More
#250 Haydn - Bipolar 1 Psychosis - Supporting a Loved One

2:06:14 | Nov 6th, 2015

The 27 year-old Colombian native shares about his recent hospitalization for Bipolar I psychosis. His girlfriend Rama (next week's guest) sits in to share what it was like for her, trying to support him. This episode is sponsored by SquareSpace.  Go...Show More
#249 Jackie Kashian Live at Podfest

2:14:12 | Oct 30th, 2015

The writer/comedian/podcaster (Dork Forest) shares about her tumultuous upbringing, and struggles with anger, depression, connecting to people and being perimenopausal.
#248 Dr Jessica Zucker #3

2:26:05 | Oct 23rd, 2015

Therapist Dr Zucker shares the harrowing emotional, mental and physical details of her late-term (16th week) miscarriage; how to support a friend or loved one who experiences pregnancy loss, and of course she and Paul talk about his mom.
#247 Danny Hatch

1:52:07 | Oct 16th, 2015

The 23 year-old Oklahoman shares about his depression, cutting, feelings of inadequacy, finding a voice and identify through comedy (Keith & The Girl podcast), feeling some shame for wanting to be famous and the slow process of accepting his bisexual...Show More
#246 Kate Spencer

2:18:30 | Oct 9th, 2015

The writer/performer/wife/mother shares about her OCD, anxiety, panic attacks, intrusive thoughts and insomnia.  She also talks about the surprising gifts that came from the painful loss of her mother and how she is using basketball to embrace her bo...Show More
#245 Pedophile Ring Survivor Anneke Lucas

2:14:46 | Oct 2nd, 2015

Sold by her mother to a pedophile ring led by powerful politicians and aristocrats in her native Belgium, Anneke's story is about more than just survival.  She talks about the ways her PTSD affects her life but also about the empathy she learned at a...Show More
#244 Natural Highs - Neuropsychologist Dr. Matt Bellace

2:23:56 | Sep 24th, 2015

The neuropsychology PhD shares natural ways for us to improve our mood and take care of our brains.
#243 Melissa Villasenor

1:57:10 | Sep 18th, 2015

The 27 year-old comic/impressionist (America's Got Talent) opens up people-pleasing, cutting, isolating, creating, bombing, tattoos, the comfort of solitary hobbies and the struggle to practice self-care.
#242 Elyn Saks on Schizophrenia & Mental Health Law

2:03:46 | Sep 11th, 2015

The USC professor of law, psychiatry and psychology (in addition to a PhD in Psychoanalysis) talks about her history of schizophrenia, her multiple hospitalizations and how she has learned to manage it.  They also talk about mental health and the law...Show More
#241 Glenn Rockowitz

2:20:57 | Sep 4th, 2015

The comedian, writer (Rodeo in Joliet and Saturday Night Live) and voice actor opens up about his ongoing battles with cancer, how being told 20 years ago that he had "three months to live" changed his life and how difficult he finds it to ask for he...Show More
#240 Psychiatrist Dr Melanie Watkins

2:29:11 | Aug 28th, 2015

The board-certified psychiatrist answers questions about personality disorders, medication, problems in the mental health system and mental health in the black community.
#239 Samantha Finkelstein

2:20:13 | Aug 21st, 2015

The registered dietitian shares about the huge importance that was placed on food growing up in her family, how she used it to soothe instead of finding a healthy way to express her emotions and how it morphed into an eating disorder.
#238 Jason Ickovitz

1:34:13 | Aug 14th, 2015

The Licensed Family and Marriage Therapist opens up about the verbal abuse he endured as a kid from his father who pushed him to excel in baseball, and how therapy not only helped him cope but made him realize he wanted to be a therapist.
#238 Gladys A.

2:37:30 | Aug 7th, 2015

The 26 year-old adoptee (from Paraguay) shares about growing up with an emotionally disturbed sibling and single mom, experiencing racism at her all-white school, and turning to porn and escorting to pay the bills while pursuing her dream of screenwr...Show More
#236 Jenny Pentland

2:41:10 | Jul 31st, 2015

The mother of four talks about her unstable upbringing by her famous mom (Roseanne Barr),  her stints in juvenile lock down facilities, her battles with food and her sometimes crippling anxiety.
#235 Peter Hesen

1:53:56 | Jul 24th, 2015

The 61 year-old talks about loneliness, the painful depths his addictions took him to and the chance he has in sobriety to be the kind of father he never had.
#234 Raised by Hoarders w/Michelle F

1:51:40 | Jul 17th, 2015

27 year-old Michelle F shares about being raised by a shopaholic mom and a father (and grandparents) who hoarded.
#233 JoAnn Buttaro

2:23:02 | Jul 10th, 2015

JoAnn shares about her path to recovery after being victimized by serial rapist Jeffrey Marsalis (dubbed the rapist).  She sheds light on how she went from her lowest low to participating in the judicial process and eventually speaking publ...Show More
#232 Mary O'Hara

2:34:04 | Jul 3rd, 2015

The first pupil from her inner-city high school to attend Cambridge, the 42 year-old journalist/author shares about the poverty, violence and dysfunction that defined her childhood in West Belfast, Northern Ireland.
#231 Lisa Richards

2:05:46 | Jun 26th, 2015

The licensed clinical social worker and author of Dear Mallory: Letters to a Teenage Girl Who Killed Herself shares about the loss of her 18 year-old daughter to suicide.
#230 Raised in Scientology: Derek Bloch

2:02:44 | Jun 19th, 2015

The 28 year-old talks about being raised in the Church of Scientology by a narcissistic father and passive mother.  He details the abuse inflicted by their "Sea Org" starting when he was 13, how he reconciled their homophobia with his being gay and u...Show More
#229 Sheila & Kim

2:10:11 | Jun 12th, 2015

The lifelong friends join Paul to talk about supporting each other through their issues which include: alcoholism, food addiction, IBS and codependency.
#228 Shootout Survivor Dan Smith

2:07:30 | Jun 5th, 2015

The former armored car driver shares about the PTSD that came in the wake of a shootout that almost killed him and what it means to be masculine.
#227 Cassie Sneider

2:48:29 | May 29th, 2015

The writer and graphic artist (and karaoke DJ) talks with Paul about her parents gambling and shopping addictions, being bullied, becoming violent in her 20s and eventually finding therapy and support groups for her codependency.
#226 Therapist Kati Morton #2

1:56:10 | May 22nd, 2015

Therapist Kati Morton returns to answer listener questions.
#225 Joe and June

2:11:07 | May 15th, 2015

The Israeli couple talk about their childhoods, how they try to support each other and finding emotional and sexual satisfaction given their individual issues.
#224 Drew Monson

1:54:49 | May 8th, 2015

The 19 year-old YouTube entertainer commiserates with Paul about OCD, depression, jealousy, naps, love and internet trolls.
#223 Heather Marlowe

2:10:55 | May 1st, 2015

The writer/performer opens up about being drugged and raped and the pressure she has been putting on the San Francisco police department to process the thousands of warehoused rape kits whose DNA could help catch the predators who remain unapprehende...Show More
#222 Terri Hartman

1:49:15 | Apr 24th, 2015

The 54 year-old shares about her battles with fibromyalgia, her physically abusive mother, how her illness affects her relationships, her anxieties and how expressing her emotions helped ease the intensity of her physical pain.
#221 Anna David

2:12:35 | Apr 17th, 2015

The author/podcaster opens up about her sexually inappropriate narcissistic father, getting sober from her cocaine addiction, fear of intimacy and vacillating between thinking that she's "the shit" or a piece of it.
#220 Matty McVarish

2:32:46 | Apr 10th, 2015

A survivor of childhood sexual abuse, Matty could no longer bear the silence he saw around him, so he started Road to Change and walked 10,000 miles across Europe to  raise awareness and in the process helped change laws in several countries.
#219 Kelly M

2:28:13 | Apr 3rd, 2015

The 24 year-old shares about identifying as asexual and gender-fluid as well as the hurdle of coming to terms with a childhood that wasn't overtly abusive, just void of connection.  They also talk about Kelly's OCD, anxiety, depression and love of fa...Show More
#218 Jensen Karp

2:10:29 | Mar 27th, 2015

The writer/ex-rapper/entrepreneur/podcaster talks about living with Obsessive Thoughts Disorder, being molested by a 19 year-old female when he was 13 and the ways his disorder interpreted the trauma until he saw it as such.
#217 Jeanie Bergen

2:05:43 | Mar 20th, 2015

The 30 year-old writer talks about being parentless at 3 and the complex relationship with her mentally disabled sister whom she now has guardianship of.  She and Paul bond over suicidal thoughts, isolating and much much more!
#216 John H

2:17:19 | Mar 13th, 2015

The 25 year-old discusses his Generalized Anxiety Disorder, social awkwardness, difficulty making eye-contact, compulsive overeating, abusive ex-wife and the possibility of being on the autism spectrum.
#215 Roxanne R.

2:20:50 | Mar 6th, 2015

The 57 year-old incest survivor talks about growing up in a family "where being born female was considered a moral failure".  She also talks about her struggles with repressed memories and possible DID (Dissociative Identify Disorder)
#214 Therapist Kati Morton

1:59:42 | Feb 27th, 2015

The licensed therapist and Paul talk about eating disorders, emotional intimacy and how to support friends/loved ones while also practicing self-care and establishing boundaries.
#213 Tiffany Haddish

2:07:28 | Feb 20th, 2015

The comedian/dancer/actor shares about her mother's descent into mental illness (schizophrenia), the abuse she suffered at her hands, the year she spent in the foster care system and the strength she feels it has given her.
#212 Dean Trippe

2:06:24 | Feb 13th, 2015

The comic book artist and father talks about the role superheroes have played in helping his imagination and creativity heal the trauma he experienced as a child, and trying to break the cycle of abandonment his father never could.
#211 Maggie Mull

2:28:36 | Feb 6th, 2015

The 28 year-old writer shares about being unemployed and an only child, her fear of abandonment, being born with club feet, body and sexuality shame and the depression that often makes everything feel like an effort.
#210 Arianna C

1:58:41 | Jan 30th, 2015

The 40 year-old shares about her traumatic upbringing (incest, religious extremism, abandonment) and the ways her body and mind learned to cope; hallucinating, going numb and following strangers and elaborately envisioning how to kill them and get aw...Show More
#209 Stirling Gardner

2:05:37 | Jan 23rd, 2015

The writer/performer opens up about his love and sex addiction, fear of intimacy and the seemingly bottomless depression that appeared after he stopped engaging in his addictions.
#208 Renee M.

2:16:27 | Jan 16th, 2015

The Hispanic, 31 year-old PhD shares about the downside of raising herself up by her bootstraps; growing up knowing she couldn't depend on her passive mother or gambler father, and now finding her emotional development lacking, especially in areas of...Show More
#207 Episode removed

0:00 | Jan 9th, 2015

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#206 Listener Confessions 2

1:44:38 | Jan 2nd, 2015

Listeners share their deepest darkest struggles and darkly hilarious "awfulsome" moments via email and surveys.  Also a contemplation on the life and death of transgender teen Leelah Alcorn.
#205 Ian Gutoskie

2:09:39 | Dec 26th, 2014

The 37 year-old Canadian comic discusses his two psychiatric hospitalizations, his Bipolar II (with rapid cycling), how sports helped him channel his anger about his abusive dad and what he does to stay in balance today.
#203 Oliver Sykes

1:44:03 | Dec 12th, 2014

Paul's 41 year-old friend talks (and laughs) about his arrested emotional development and struggle to be an adult after a childhood where he often had to parent his parents because of their addictions, mental illnesses (including hospitalizations and...Show More
#202 Gillian Callahan Chachere

2:00:12 | Dec 5th, 2014

The therapist intern opens up about the rarely-discussed trauma of miscarriage, the lack of traditional grief support in our culture, and the surprising results she got from seeking an alternative healing therapy (a full spectrum doula) after her fif...Show More
#201 Can't Stop Her Addictions w/Noemi

1:45:25 | Nov 28th, 2014

The 24 year-old first generation Mexican-American is currently unable to stop her anorexia, bulimia or blackout drinking.  She shares what her struggle is like and about the abusive ex-boyfriend whose chaos and trauma-bonding helped distract her from...Show More
#200 Former NHL Goalie Clint Malarchuk (voted #3 ep of 2014)

1:56:11 | Nov 21st, 2014

The former NHL goalie opens up about his difficult childhood and the OCD that helped him professionally but ultimately almost ended his life.  He shares about his anxiety, depression, alcoholism, suicide attempt and the PTSD from a skate to the neck ...Show More
#199 Joni G.

2:06:44 | Nov 14th, 2014

"No man ever pleased me like cocaine did."  The 60 year-old shares about the drug that helped her with her ADD, feel skinnier, prettier and more powerful especially when she began dealing it by the kilo.  She also opens up about her stint in prison a...Show More
#198 Samantha C.

2:18:47 | Nov 7th, 2014

Born with achondroplasia dwarfism to emotionally unavailable Taiwanese immigrant parents, Sam shares about being a "litte person" and the ways support groups have helped her navigate dealing with love addiction, sex addiction and co-dependency.
#197 Chris Gethard (voted #7 ep of 2014)

2:32:42 | Oct 31st, 2014

The actor/writer opens up about his blue collar New Jersey upbringing, and his battles with anger, sadness, self-sabotage, paranoia, addiction, depression and the unorthodox nurse practitioner who has helped him.
#196 Laurenne Sala

2:54:06 | Oct 24th, 2014

What happens when the Homecoming Queen takes off her popularity mask and deals with the pain of her co-dependent mom and the suicide of her gay father?  One of the most compassionate and truth-seeking guests we've ever had.
#195 Todd Glass (Voted #1 ep of 2014)

1:45:49 | Oct 17th, 2014

The comedian and author shares about growing up with Dyslexia, OCD, being held back in grade school, his coming out of the closet in his 40s and the politics of language especially in regards to sexism.
#194 Dr. Peace Amadi

1:37:49 | Oct 10th, 2014

The clinical psychologist shares her insight and experience in working with The Ruby Project, helping girls who have been sexually abused and/or involved in sex trafficking heal though group workshops and artistic expression.
#193 Laura House (Live @ LAPodfest)

1:29:10 | Oct 3rd, 2014

The meditation teacher, standup comedian and writer (Samantha Who?) talks about her struggles with alcohol, food, weight, low self-esteem, relationships and what she gets from support groups and meditation.   Recorded live @ LApodfest.
Episode 192: Cheryl Klein

2:35:18 | Sep 26th, 2014

The breast cancer survivor opens up about her lifelong hypochondria, OCD and anxiety. She talks about the emotional toll of infertility, having a miscarriage and the ensuing depression as well as her double mastectomy, having had a hysterectomy (beca...Show More
Episode 191: Matt Oswalt (voted #8 ep of 2014)

1:35:07 | Sep 19th, 2014

The 43 year-old comedy writer opens up about his idyllic childhood, and a couple of traumatic events he believes contribute to his isolating and fighting the demons of depression while being single, unemployed and living alone.
Episode 190: Aparna Nancherla

1:54:14 | Sep 12th, 2014

The first generation Indian-American comedian opens up about her low self-esteem, perfectionism, depression, anxiety, eating disorder, the trap of becoming the "good child" and the constant struggle to not compare herself to others.
Episode 190: Aparna Nancherla (voted #10 ep of 2014)

0:00 | Sep 12th, 2014

The first generation Indian-American comedian opens up about her low self-esteem, perfectionism, depression, anxiety, eating disorder, the trap of becoming the "good child" and the constant struggle to not compare herself to others.
Episode 189: Lance L

2:14:31 | Sep 5th, 2014

The pansexual Iraqi war veteran talks about his plans to come out to his homophobic family, growing up with a mother who picked terrible men,  his deadbeat dad and meeting a half-brother & doing a joint road trip to confront the father that abandoned...Show More
Episode 188: Ask Erika Holmes MFT

1:51:22 | Aug 29th, 2014

Marriage and Family Therapist Erika Holmes answers listener questions from Facebook and Twitter.  Topics include Eating Disorders, Borderline Personality Disorder, PTSD therapies, Neurofeedback and potential damage caused by parents who are religious...Show More
Episode 187: Susanna Lee

2:34:18 | Aug 22nd, 2014

The comedian/burlesque dancer talks about the power, pitfalls and rush of performing with and without her clothes on, including being a sex worker at a "jack shack" to make ends meet.  She opens up about her low self-esteem, struggles with her dad an...Show More
Episode 186: Jimmy Doyle

1:57:52 | Aug 15th, 2014

The former Second City improviser turned drug & alcohol counselor talks about his mother's suicide when he was 12, coming out at 16 (in 1981), getting physically sober but being emotionally toxic and being fired from the prestigious improv company an...Show More
Episode 185: Dese'Rae L Stage

1:56:40 | Aug 8th, 2014

The photographer and activist talks about her bookwormish childhood, coming out in high school, the abusive relationship she couldn't bear to leave and her project which documents the stories of suicide attempt survivors (she is one) Live Through Thi...Show More
Episode 184: Pamela Martin

1:53:06 | Aug 1st, 2014

Is Chronic Fatigue Syndrome (Fibromyalgia, ME, etc) a purely physical ailment or is there also an emotional component related to trauma.  Pamela shares about being an incest survivor as well as the challenges of living with CFS and  being a people pl...Show More
Episode 183: Jason Nash

2:06:33 | Jul 25th, 2014

Recently diagnosed with BiPolar II, the actor and director of Jason Nash is Married talks about his fear of being just like his dad, his inability to fully enjoy what others seem to be able to easily enjoy, including being married and a stay at-home ...Show More
Episode 182: Pia Glenn

2:14:25 | Jul 18th, 2014

The writer/performer shares about being raised by a violent and mentally unstable mother who refused to take meds, often leading to 911 calls and police.  She also talks about her own depression, anxiety, perfectionism and relationship struggles.
Episode 181: Lauren Hennessy

1:42:05 | Jul 11th, 2014

The actor/singer and fiance of past guest Chemda talks about being a trans male (male but born into a female body) and despite his religious upbringing (his father is a minister) coming to embrace being transgender.
Episode 180: Jill Morley

1:42:51 | Jul 4th, 2014

At 40, Jilll took up competitive boxing to work through the childhood PTSD caused by her mother's physical abuse.  She shares about living with depression, aiding other female fighters and making her documentary Fight Like a Girl.
Episode 179: Tyler W.

1:52:36 | Jun 27th, 2014

The 26 year-old law student talks about his struggles with addiction especially bulimia, assuming the role of caretaker for his alcoholic parents when he was a child, a jarring move to a racially intolerant "Christian" city, and the peace he has toda...Show More
Episode 178: Anna Akana

1:58:17 | Jun 20th, 2014

The performer/writer/director best known for her popular YouTube channel opens up about growing up with a Japanese father and Filipino mother where mistakes were not tolerated.  She also shares about her sister's suicide, lying, drugs & sex. Visit A...Show More
Episode 177: Michael H.

1:51:26 | Jun 13th, 2014

The 25 year-old Taiwanese American shares about his co-dependency, painful breakups and perfectionism as well as the irony that as a trained therapist he knows he should establish boundaries with his mother but cannot bring himself to do so.
Episode 176: Bernadette

1:56:07 | Jun 6th, 2014

The 36 year-old mother shares about the middle-class version of Cops that was her childhood, her Borderline Personality Disorder, suicide attempts and the drinking problem she can't bring herself to confront despite its effect on her children & boyfr...Show More
Episode 175: Mick Betancourt (voted #5 ep of 2014)

2:14:46 | May 30th, 2014

The comedian/podcaster/writer opens up about his incredibly chaotic childhood, alcoholism and fighting the feelings of worthlessness, especially that he often feels like a fraud in his role as a father and husband.  He also shares about the tools he ...Show More
Episode 174: Andrea Schaeffer

1:59:47 | May 23rd, 2014

The Canadian listener talks about the masks she feels she had to wear to deal with childhood sadness, being raped at 16, and experiencing postpartum depression.  She talks about the support groups & the health care system that saved her life.
Episode 173: Julian F

1:58:55 | May 16th, 2014

His childhood was a flurry of moving all over Europe and South America, his parents treated him like "Good Cop Bad Cop" and he has no idea why he felt like a "little pervert" as a kid.  They talk about manipulation, addiction, mania & a lot more.
Episode 172: Lynette Carolla

2:07:03 | May 9th, 2014

The mother, wife and podcaster(For Crying Out Loud) talks about being pushed to be a child actor, the psychosis that mental illness brought upon her brother and mother, abusing Vicodin in an attempt to deal with postpartum depression and living with ...Show More
Episode 171: Tom Kramer

2:03:20 | May 2nd, 2014

The writer/director (Fridays, Curb Your Enthusiasm) shares about being sexually shamed, his fear of people and the drug and alcohol battles that took the great career he had been given at 20 and burned it to the ground, leaving him homeless.
Episode 170: Christina Pazsitzky

1:52:57 | Apr 25th, 2014

The standup/actress shares about being the only child of parents who fled Communist Hungary, and after their divorce absorbing the brunt of her mothers mental illness (Borderline Personality Disorder).  She shares about the emotional scars and how sh...Show More
Episode 169: Mini Ep - Guilt w/Dr. Guy Winch

53:17 | Apr 21st, 2014

Clinical psychologist Dr. Guy Winch shares some insights and tips on how to deal with guilt, plus some listener surveys.
Episode 168: Sexual Confusion - Kira

2:11:22 | Apr 18th, 2014

The 29 year-old shares about the shame of having intrusive thoughts imagining sex with children; getting blackout drunk to the point of violence and making peace with coming out as a lesbian after years of not understanding why she disliked sex with ...Show More
Mini Ep #167 - Failure w/Dr. Guy Winch

32:14 | Apr 14th, 2014

Clinical psychologist Dr. Guy Winch shares some insights and tips for dealing with failure.  Guy is the author of the book Emotional First Aid.
Episode 166: Tracy Irvine

1:44:02 | Apr 11th, 2014

The 40 year-old corporate recruiter shares about growing up with a sick mother (ALS) whose needs overshadowed hers, losing both her parents in her teens, using food for comfort, surviving an abusive marriage, depression, support groups, meds & self-l...Show More
Mini Episode 165: Low Self-Esteem (voted #4 ep of 2014)

39:27 | Apr 7th, 2014

Clinical psychologist Dr. Guy Winch shares some insights and tips on dealing with low self-esteem.
Episode 164: Natasha L.

1:46:42 | Apr 4th, 2014

After Natasha's mother died she discovered her diaries.  What she read was horrifying to the average person but had the opposite effect on her.  She shares about her mother's apparent Borderline Personality Disorder and how it has affected her.
#163 Mini-Ep: Loneliness w/Dr. Guy Winch (voted #6 ep of 2014)

28:16 | Apr 1st, 2014

Clinical psychologist Dr. Guy Winch shares some insights and tips on dealing with loneliness.  Guy is the author or the book  Emotional First Aid.  Paul also reads some surveys over his dog's objections.
Episode 162: Monica LIttle

2:03:51 | Mar 28th, 2014

The mother and wife of a combat medic talks about her battles with intimacy, anxiety, drug abuse and the family that turned a blind eye to her pedophile grandfather.  She also talks about how being raped at 19 affected her sexuality.
Mini-Episode #161: Rejection with Dr. Guy Winch

50:50 | Mar 24th, 2014

Clinical psychologist and author of the book Emotional First Aid, Dr. Guy Winch shares some tips and insights on dealing with rejection.
Episode 160: Parenting Mental Illness

1:54:44 | Mar 21st, 2014

Listener Joy opens up to Paul about raising a child with mental illness, especially her teenage daughter's Reactive Attachment Disorder, depression, the social stigma, the healthcare system and how to deal with it.
Mini Episode #159 - Rumination with Guy Winch PhD (voted #9 ep of 2014)

32:23 | Mar 18th, 2014

Paul reads an email, two surveys then talks with author Guy Winch (PhD in clinical psychology) about practical tips to deal with rumination.  Guy is the author of the book Emotional First Aid.   This is the first of six mini-episodes with Guy on deal...Show More
Episode 158: Melissa Stetten

1:55:53 | Mar 14th, 2014

The writer/model/actress talks about being raised by dis-interested parents, her battles with depression and the feeling that if she doesn't have a man in her life she feels "worthless".   Melissa is currently a writer for
Episode 157: Nandi La Sophia

2:14:55 | Mar 7th, 2014

At four years-old he told his mom he wanted to be a lady when he grows up.  He shares about the violence inflicted by his complex father and classmates.  He talks about managing his PTSD, insomnia, Bipolar II, night terrors and being a rape survivor.
Episode 156: Sophie B

1:56:39 | Feb 28th, 2014

The listener discusses hearing voices, dealing with Borderline Personality disorder and/or Bipolar II as well as the abusive "relationship" she had with a 22 year-old when she was 12 and how she began self-harming then.  The surveys are pretty dark.
Episode 155: Andrew Donnelly

1:59:36 | Feb 21st, 2014

The 46 year-old comedian talks about the frustration and shame of battling ADD and depression while trying to be a good husband and father.  He and Paul talk about how to deal with anger when feeling overwhelmed and the bright side of living with men...Show More
Episode 154: Dr. Jessica DuBron

1:53:23 | Feb 14th, 2014

The PhD (clinical psychology) shares about working with at-risk youth particularly in the LGBT population and in a Psychiatric Evaluation team, responding to mental health emergencies.  She also talks about the addictive rush of working in crisis.
Episode 153: Jim O'Brien

2:06:09 | Feb 7th, 2014

The handyman/comedian opens up about growing up with a seriously ill single mother (Addison's disease) and alcoholic father.  He recounts the breakup with a girl, the depression that wound up getting him committed to a mental facility against his wil...Show More
Episode 152: Lindsay

2:07:47 | Jan 31st, 2014

The list of major health issues she dealt with in childhood including brain and spine surgeries pale in comparison to the complicated relationship with her father; an alcoholic with no boundaries.  Paul and Lindsay discuss the parent who is oblivious...Show More
Episode 151: Listener Confessions

1:29:08 | Jan 24th, 2014

Culled from a month of surveys filled out by listeners.  Paul reads their shames, secrets, fears, hopes and beautiful moments.  And of course some "awfulsome" moments as well.
Episode 150: Ryan Sickler

2:07:06 | Jan 17th, 2014

The standup comedian (Comedy Central, Late Late Show w/Craig Ferguson) and podcaster (The Crabfeast) shares about the hatred he endured from his mother and the love from his father and other relatives that saved him.
Episode 149: Cathy Ladman

1:54:22 | Jan 10th, 2014

The writer (Roseanne) and standup (Tonight Show, Late Late Show w/Craig Ferguson) opens up about the controlling environment she was raised in, her professional anxieties especially about her age (58) and her decades long battle with anorexia.
Episode 148: Matthew Walden

2:06:04 | Jan 3rd, 2014

Although the writer/listener grew up in Hawaii, his childhood was far from paradise; enduring a cornucopia of PTSD, leaving him wondering what is real and what isn't.  He also shares his obsession with cults and and the time he joined one to write ab...Show More
Episode 147: Listener Amelia & Postpartum Depression

1:51:27 | Dec 27th, 2013

Amelia discusses her "nuclear" PMS (called PMDD), her first pregnancy and the pressures she felt for everything to be perfect and the crushing Postpartum Depression that followed.  She also talks about the childhood traumas that might be linked to it...Show More
Episode 146: Chemda

2:13:04 | Dec 20th, 2013

The podcaster (Keith and the Girl) was raised in NY but born in Israel to a mother of Iraqi heritage and an Iranian father, both of whom had traditional expectations for their daughter, none of which included her being engaged to a female-bodied man.
Episode 145: Dr. David Lisak

2:06:16 | Dec 13th, 2013

Born in Montreal to a WWII widow, the clinical and forensic psychologist talks about the sexual abuse he experienced as a boy, the stigma and confusion adult male survivors grapple with and ultimately how he healed.  Episode is sponsored by www1in6.o...Show More
Episode 144: Listener Seth

1:51:36 | Dec 6th, 2013

Raised by parents who talked about God a lot, the 29 year-old opens up about the hypocrisy he saw in a mom who couldn't parent him and a trucker dad who was either disappearing for months or dealing meth in their small Wyoming town.
Episode 143: Erica Rhodes

2:16:44 | Nov 29th, 2013

The actress (Prairie Home Companion, Big Sky) was raised by successful but emotionally closed-off parents, and was emotionally volatile as a child.  Recently diagnosed with Bipolar II, she discusses the suicide attempts, paralyzing depression, mania ...Show More
Episode 142: Scott Thompson Live in Toronto

1:34:34 | Nov 22nd, 2013

The comedian/actor/writer (Kids in the Hall, Larry Sanders, Hannibal) opens up about his childhood in Brampton Ontario, coming to terms with his sexuality and the bullying that eroded his self-esteem.  He also shares about a traumatic and violent eve...Show More
Episode 141: Susanna Brisk

1:42:33 | Nov 15th, 2013

Borderline Personality Disorder is often misunderstood.  The blogger, author, performer and mom explains what it's like to live with, how to manage it and when it's most challenging.  She also shares about her emotionally volatile childhood with her ...Show More
Episode 140: Paraphilia & Self-Abuse - Listener "D"

1:45:35 | Nov 8th, 2013

The 28 year-old listener opens up about his familiy's history of avoiding emotions, his cries for help, struggling to live on $8/hour, his cutting and self-abuse and his shame over his paraphilia (adult baby) fetish.
Episode 139: Adoption w/listener Julie J

2:15:40 | Nov 1st, 2013

Born to a drug-addict teenage mom, Julie was given up for adoption and raised by a stoic military dad and Fundamentalist mom whose obession with demons comes close to resembling the mother from "Carrie".   There much more to her story including her h...Show More
Episode 138: Johnny O

1:47:34 | Oct 25th, 2013

Paul's friend shares about being committed to a psych hospital at 17 over a breakup, discovering drugs (crack) and how to hustle money to feed his habit.  Hitting bottom in the desert and the dog that might have saved his life.
Episode 137: Aisha Tyler Live at LAPodfest

1:57:55 | Oct 18th, 2013

The actress/writer/standup/podcaster/tv host joins Paul at LAPodfest in front of a live audience and discusses her outcast status as a child, where her drive comes from, growing to understand her father and appreciate the challenges of her marriage.
Episode 136: Listener Juan Medina

1:40:42 | Oct 11th, 2013

The 26 year-old shares about emigrating to the U.S. from Mexico at 8, his fear of his father, "passing" for white, his body dysmorphia and the trouble feeling his feelings rather than shutting down.
Episode 135: Christina Jasberg

1:34:01 | Oct 4th, 2013

She was raised by a father with Schizo-Affective Disorder who would often break from reality.  By her twenties she was battling the same disorder along with bulimia, anorexia and cutting.  Hospitalized over 80 times, she shares about coming out the o...Show More
Episode 134: Transgender Listener "Pidgeon"

1:54:31 | Sep 27th, 2013

He is still physically female but has always identified as a male.  He talks about what it means to be genderfluid or genderqueer as well as pansexual and the diffiult road in discovering who he is and expressing that around others, especially family...Show More
Episode 133: Adrienne Selbert

1:57:10 | Sep 20th, 2013

Raised by attentive, loving parents she neverlheless grew up with a pervasive feeling of emptiness that she sought to soothe through relationships with men.   In her words she, "Burnt her life to the ground", but used the experience and pain to grow.
Episode 132: Listener Tom Seiniger

2:03:16 | Sep 13th, 2013

The 22 year-old opens up about the guilt and anxiety of growing up feeling like it was his duty to keep his mother out of her depression, even though she was emotionally incestuous with him, how he finally rebelled, and the toll it has taken.
Episode 131: Co-Narcissism (a mini episode)

28:06 | Sep 9th, 2013

Paul reads an article written by Alan Rappoport PhD about Co-Narcissism, which he describes as a result of being raised by one or sometimes two narcissistic parents.
Episode 130: Cameron Esposito

2:18:28 | Sep 6th, 2013

The standup comedian (Late Night with Craig Ferguson) opens up about her conservative Catholic upbringing and coming to terms with being lesbian.  She and Paul talk about bad porn, being turned on by things we wouldn't want in real life and the heavy...Show More
Episode 129: David Hirohama on Counseling Predators

2:01:13 | Aug 30th, 2013

The 3rd generation Japanese-American psychologist shares his experience and observations counseling sexual predators (rapists and child molesters) at Coalinga, a lockdown mental hospital in central California and how he used Buddhism to help him cope...Show More
Episode 128: Alison Baziak

1:51:46 | Aug 23rd, 2013

The 31 year-old listener ponders her low self-esteem, food issues, history of self-mutilation, compulsive spending and suicide attempts when her parents were "nothing but supportive".
Episode 127: Offspring of Holocaust Survivors

1:48:30 | Aug 16th, 2013

Two sons of Holocaust survivors, Michael Rozbruch and Amir Tiles sit down with psychotherapist Joel Schwartz whose grandparents are also survivors and they discuss the ripples of PTSD still felt today within the families, caused by the trauma.  Amir'...Show More
Episode 126: Therapist Susan Hagen Helps Paul & Listeners

2:12:23 | Aug 9th, 2013

The therapist who is also in recovery helps Paul and some listeners (via surveys) navigate their discomfort and confusion about their current issues.   They discuss the cliched but effective tools of self-parenting and inner-child work, as well as th...Show More
Episode 125: Vietnam Vet Randy Olea

2:05:14 | Aug 2nd, 2013

A father/brother figure to Paul, the high-school teacher reflects on his Mexican heritage, violent upbringing, tour in Vietnam, stints as a bouncer at a Hell's Angels bar, and a Club Med guide, his getting "struck sober" and how he has evolved to bec...Show More
Episode 124: Amber Tozer

1:47:38 | Jul 26th, 2013

The comedian (Last Comic Standing, Twitwits) talks her own alcoholism, her dad's awkward foray into lingerie photography, craving her mother's acceptance and understanding her own fluid sexuality.
Episode 123: Baron Vaughn

2:11:21 | Jul 19th, 2013

The actor/comedian (Conan, Jimmy Fallon, Comedy Central) talks about his struggle to feel "authentically black" without betraying who he is, the state of comedy in the black community, honing his artistic voice, and his turbulent childhood especially...Show More
Episode 122: Giving Up Her Baby - Valerie

1:51:20 | Jul 12th, 2013

Valerie, a listener talks about the painful decision she made to give her only son up for adoption years ago when she was 18 and living with her Catholic, divorced mother.
Episode 121: Christian Finnegan

2:05:43 | Jul 5th, 2013

The standup comedian (Comedy Central Presents, Chapelle's Show, Best Week Ever, Countdown with Keith Olberman) opens up about the tragedy and parental mental illness that shaped his childhood and still affects him today as well as his struggle to tru...Show More
Episode 120: Aspergers - Listener Louise

2:02:32 | Jun 28th, 2013

Her childhood marked with social stress, being bullied, aggressiveness and severe digestive issues (including Barrett's Esophagus a condition involving acid reflux usually only found in adults) Louise was finally diagnosed with Aspergers Syndrome, al...Show More
Episode 119: Raped By His Sister - Tom

1:54:05 | Jun 21st, 2013

Raised by a Baptist preacher who frequently got run out of town and raped by his older sister starting when he was 4, "Tom" has had a lot to work through.  A great episode about working through trauma especially in families that can't communicate.
Episode 118: Kulap Vilaysack returns!

1:59:12 | Jun 14th, 2013

The actor and podcaster (Who Charted?) returns to the podcast to talk about the struggle to keep a relationship with her mother whose gambling addiction has wreaked havoc on her family's life.
Episode 117: Paul's Best Friend Dr. Mike Sebahar

1:56:07 | Jun 7th, 2013

The Intervential Pain Specialist has been Paul's best friend since 1982.  They recount the evolotuion of their relationship, especially both dealing with the effects their father's alcoholism had on their families.  Mike also talks about the tightrop...Show More
Episode 116: Listener Meghan P. Returns

1:50:06 | May 31st, 2013

Listener Meghan P. returns to talk about being diagnosed with "Psychotic Disorder Not Otherwise Specified" and the hospitalization that resulted from going off of her meds in anticipation of losing her health insurance.    She discusses the intense p...Show More
Episode 115: Ashly Burch

2:00:44 | May 24th, 2013

The writer and actress (Hey Ash, Whatcha' Playin?) and VO artist (Tiny Tina of Borderlands 2) opens up about the recent accidental overdose death of her boyfriend and the struggle to put her life back together.  They also talk about the danger of inv...Show More
Episode 114: Listener Michael D. and Breaking the Cycle of Abuse

1:40:54 | May 17th, 2013

Michael opens up about his teenage struggle to avoid dealing with his chaotic and abusive childhood by being extremely regimented, resulting in an eating disorder, punching himself, compulsive exercising and eventually having a nervous breakdown.  He...Show More
Episode 113: Lynn Chen

1:50:01 | May 10th, 2013

The actress (Saving Face, NCIS, Lakeview Terrace) and blogger (The Actor's Diet) opens up about processing the complex emotions of losing her father, food issues, and forgiving her abusers.  Paul opens the show with an extended update on current emot...Show More
Episode 112: Child Protective Services Social Worker "Ray"

1:52:06 | May 3rd, 2013

What is it like to be the government agent that has to physically investigate allegations of abuse or neglect and sometimes even remove children from a home?  "Ray", a 3rd generation social worker opens up about his passion and struggles working for ...Show More
Episode 111: Karen Kilgariff Live in Portland

1:42:31 | Apr 26th, 2013

The actress (Mr. Show) and writer (The Ellen DeGeneres Show) shares about struggling to fit in, body shame, her alcoholism, her mother's Alzheimers, learning to accept her body and become vulnerable and her experiences in therapy.  Recorded 4/20/13 a...Show More
Episode 110: Greg Behrendt Returns

1:19:31 | Apr 19th, 2013

The podcaster (Walking the Room), author (He's Just Not That Into You) and guitarist (The Reigning Monarchs) returns to discuss the mania, depression and paranoia that left him considering suicide in a Montreal hotel room.  They also discuss the diff...Show More
Episode 109: Listener Claire Laffar

1:41:14 | Apr 12th, 2013

Claire shares about her bullied upbringing outside London with a neurotic mom and a mysterious, stoic dad prone to explosive fits of rage and how escaping into fantasy worlds, especially books, became her way of coping.
Episode 108: Greg Fitzsimmons

1:49:22 | Apr 5th, 2013

The writer (The Ellen DeGeneres Show, Lucky Louie) comedian (Comedy Central, The Howard Stern Show) and podcaster (Fitzdog Radio) opens up about his tumultuous relationship with his late father, his temper, his body shame, ADHD and alcohol.
Episode 107: Sara Benincasa

1:37:59 | Mar 29th, 2013

The writer (Agorafabulous!,,